Clouded Memories

Chapter 3

Pagkatapos ng lahat ng nangyari kahapon ay hindi ko na siya nakita. Siguradong bumalik na siya sa trabaho, paniguradong hindi rin matutupad ang kasunduan namin dahil parehas kaming busy.

Bumisita ang iilang mga nagtatrabaho ngayon sa firm kaya abala ang lahat sa pakikipagusap sa isa't isa, habang ako ay nakatayo lamang sa gilid, pinapanood silang lahat.

I felt like an outcast while looking at them all happy and enthusiastic.

Sabagay, secretary lang naman ako. I have nothing to contribute to their conversation.

Kaya nagulat ako nang bigla akong lapitan ng isa sa mga architects ng firm. Minsan ko lang siya nakita sa firm pero kilala ko siya, Mr. Killian Fernandez.

That's the only thing I know about him, his name.

I awkwardly smiled as he went towards me, leaving Ma'am Elizabeth who then turned her head towards us.

Umawang ang labi ko at saka inayos ang sarili.

"Uh, hi po sir" I awkwardly said while holding my phone tightly in between my hands.

He chuckled at my stuttering. "Secretary of Miss Romero right? I've only seen you in meetings" Marahang tumango ako do'n.

Hindi ko alam kung ano ba dapat ang gagawin ko. Kung sasagutin ko lang ba ang nga tanong niya o dadagdagan pa 'yon.

"Opo" Simpleng tugon ko na tinanguan lang niya.

"Well, nice meeting you. I'm Killian Fernandez by the way" Marahan akong ngumiti bago kami nagshake hands.

Ang buhok niya ay medyo mahaba, maputi siya at bilugan ang mga mata. Para bang kayang kayang makuha ang kahit na sino sa isang tingin.

Medyo matangkad siya kaysa sa'kin at matipuno din ang katawan.

"How old are you?" He asked again.

"I'm twenty five" Hindi ko alam kung itatanong ko din ba ang gulang niya. Hindi naman ako interesado, kaya wag nalang.

"You're much more older than I expected, wow" He chuckled, hindi ko alam kung compliment ba 'yon o hindi.

I've always hated looking like a teenager. I never looked matured or curvy. My facial features are soft and innocent looking, though many women die to look young ang pure in my case I don't.

I want to look like the other girls, refined cheekbones, big plumpy lips, broad eye brows and hooded eyes. I want to have curves too, I want to be able to put on skimpy dresses without being insecure about how my body looks.

"Oh, thanks" Ngumiwi ako.

"I'm 28 years old by the way" Tumango lang ako, hindi interisado sa kahit anong sinasabi niya.

"You're very beautiful" He sounded genuine and kind. I will thank him but something inside me keeps yelling that I need to do more than just a thank you.

I might look snob and ungrateful when I just thank him. Should I hug him? or that's too much. Should I compliment his looks as well?

Shit, this is why I hate communicating with strangers.

"Uh...thanks, you look attractive too" I smiled to look genuine. Though he does look pretty attractive, he's not my type.

"Really? Does that mean something?" He smirked. Ngumiwi ako at saka nagiwas ng tingin. Now I'm doomed, I didn't even meant what I said!

"Uhh, you can say that I-I guess?" Pinilig ko ang ulo. This conversation is stressing the hell out of me, I feel like I should act a certain way! especially with a guy like him that's position is high.