"No" I said with a stoic expression. I admit that I want to say yes, yes I do want to be in a relationship with him. But I'm scared, I am so damn scared to risk my heart knowing that in the end we'll both get hurt.
If I continue this, I will fall deeper and deeper like how I fell before. I'm afraid that he'll be hurt in the process to and I don't want that. I would rather be hurt than see him in pain especially because of me.
Hindi ko kaya Adrian, masyado na ata kitang mahal para ipagpatuloy ang kasinungalingan kong ito. Naguguilty ako...
"Then I will court-"
"No Adrian, no means no. No, let's just both end this here" My heart is slowly being in pain, every pump of blood felt like poison slowly spreading inside my body.
Nangingilid ang luha sa mata ko ngunit sinubukan ko 'yong pigilan. "Please..." He held me tighter, I can feel him breathing heavily. His hands were shaking but still kept its composure.
Umiling ako, hindi ako makatitig sakaniya. Hindi ko kaya. "The deal is done, I will drop out next semester-"
"I don't care if the deal is done you're not dropping out. You're finishing it" Mabigat akong bumuntong hininga at matamaan siyang tinitigan.
His eyes were bloodshot red, his noes, neck, ears were all bloody red. "Fine then, I'll get going" Umigting ang panga niya, ang malalaki niyang kamay ay yumapos sa beywang ko habang mariin akong tinititigan.
It made me shiver, of how profound his stare was. If he wasn't holding me in place I bet I already fell down in embarrassment.
"Don't go, you are not leaving" He said provocatively. Mas bumilis ang pagtibok ng puso ko, lalo na sa mga malalalim niyang titig.
"Yes, I am leaving for the stake of you" Hinawakan ko ang parehas niyang kamay at dahan dahan iyong tinangal sa pagkahawak sa akin. He didn't budge or move. He just let me do it while his eyes were still rooted on me.
"You have a fiancée..." He groaned loudly at that, he languidly took my wrist again before looking at me tiredly, like he was done with all of my bullshits and that topic to be specific.
"I don't, me and Rue are friends" I smiled bitterly at that. I really hope Adrian, I really hope you two are just friends because friends don't offer eachother marriage.
"I saw...the article" My voice broke. My hands were shaking while looking at him, he looks very agitated and annoyed by me.
"What article again Elaine?" He asked impatiently, he craned his neck to the side trying to calm his self down. Mas lalo tuloy nadepina ang pamumula niya.
"Y-Yung may hawak kang singsing, and the the article said-"
"We're engaged and I proposed to her?" I was stunned at that, he knows! He knows about the article yet he didn't even dare saying a word or two about it!
Sabagay naman Elaine, bakit ba niya kailangang sabihin ang tungkol doon? Hindi ba dapat wala kang pakealam?
"Okay lang naman wala naman akong pakiala-"
"Fuck, that was her ring Elaine! She bought that in singapore, sabi niya may importante siyang sasabihin kaya pumunta ako sa restaurant na 'yon"
"She gave me the velvet box and told me to open it to see, Hindi ako nagpropose sakaniya, I would never proposed to her! We were never got promised to eachother because I never agreed being married to her" I was stunned! I believed the fucking article because it looks really real! It was as if he was really proposing to her.
BINABASA MO ANG
Clouded Memories
عاطفية(Forgiving Her Series #1) I knew I hated him, I hated everything about him. From his looks, to the way he presents himself. I hate him. Elaine Ruth Guttierez has always grown to be the one who values validation. She hates to take risks, she sticks...
