Clouded Memories

Chapter 16

I feel so fucking nauseous alright! Hindi ko na pinansin ang pagsuka ko ng biglaan sa dibdib niya. I felt quite guilty but it didn't even bothered me one bit since the dizziness was taking over my whole system.

"Are you dizzy? Wait-fuck" I can feel him panicking, I can't even absorb everything that is happening. I can see him taking off his attire leaving his white sando.

"Kaya ko...kaya ko s-sarili ko" Mariin kong hinawakan ang nuo bago ako naglakad patungo sa dulo ng sidewalk para sana pumara nang bigla niya akong kargahin. He picked me up with just one swift motion like a bride.

He opened his car door and made me enter even though I can go home by myself!

I need to prove him that I can handle myself and that I don't need him but I can't. I am bewildered by my surroundings and I am unaware of what I should do.

I can hold my drinks quite well, but I think the bitterness and pain led me to this predicament. I saw him enter the car panting, he was talking to some employees.

I can still talk, I think I can still talk!

"Adrian-I'm, I'm s-sorry nasuka-nasukahan...kita" Lumunok ako at saka mariing sumandal sa upuan habang hawak hawak ang nuo. I suddenly remembered what I've just saw yesterday.

Shit, I really had all the time and effort to even think if that?!

I sashayed my shoulder on the seat trying to atleast ease my throbbing head and the dizziness. "Come here" He softly took my wrist so I could go closer, I half-heartedly obliged and let him help me drink the water.

Nang natapos ako ay hinimas niya ang buhok ko habang mariin akong tinitigan. I couldn't see his face well, my vision is blurry but I can confirm the loud banging of my heart.

Lumunok ako at saka sumakit ang lalamunan. Knowing that he's like this, all caring and concerned when he is already with someone! When he's already inlove with someone and that's not me!

Hindi ko alam pero bigla akong naiyak. Hindi ko alam kung bakit! "I-I saw your...the picture of y-you and Rue you were proposing to her while-" My voice broke before covering my eyes. My heart is so punctured right now I feel like it's bleeding.

I have never felt this way in five years. Ngayon lang ulit at sakaniya...ulit. "T-Tapos hinalikan-mo ako, bago k-ka umalis tapos" Humagulgol ako, I was speaking my mind.

Inilalabas ko lahat ng kinikimkim ko nung nalaman ko 'yon. I can tell him all my lamets until dawn if I can! This is the only time I got the guts to actually say these...

"Is that why you stopped answering my texts and calls?" His voice was smooth as a feather.

I nodded still crying out loud. "Oo! Kasi...akala ko-" Umiling ako at saka mas lalo lang humagulgol, I couldn't control these bottled up feelings anymore.

I feel like I'm gonna explode damn! "Akala ko...hindi, nalaman kong mahal mo siya...mahal mo siya?" I looked at him teary eyed before shaking my head not waiting for his response or even giving him any chance to talk.

"S-Sabi mo sa akin noon-ako mahal m-mo" I cried even more like a kid lost inside a big mall. Sumasakit ang puso ko, para akong patuloy na sinasaksak ng milyon milyong espada.

"H-Huh? What are you-"

I didn't know what happened afterwards, I just remembered crying my heart out that night. Wala na akong ibang maalala pa kung hindi ang pagtulog ko. Pero alam kong may iba pa akong sinabi, hindi ko nalang maalala pa.

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I woke up with a headache, my head is throbbing outrageously when I stood up. Pero halos mawala lahat nang 'yon nang mapagtanto kong asa ibang bahay ako.