Healer

Kabanata 12

Half- brother

I watch how Herod's eyes change after he heard everything. Hecap remain serious, in matter of short time Hecap change in a blink of an eye. Isang ngiti lang ang ibinungad nito sa akin nang magkita kami sa mansion.

"Son." Mr. Albun Levitte called his son. Herod's eyes glances at his father. I can tell he is mad, angry and feel betrayed. Herod is six years older than Hecap Argus.

"How could you.." Matigas na tanong niya sa kaniyang ama. Sinubukang hawakan ni Mrs. Levitte ang kamay ni Herod pero inalis niya ito.

"I guess we can talk about this outside." Tumayo si Mr. Levitte pero nagsalita si Herod.

"No. We will talk it here." Lumipat ang kaniyang tingin sa kay Hecap na ngayon ay prenteng naka-upo sa sofa habang naka-de-quatro. Ako naman ay tahimik lang nakikinig sa usapan nang dalawang pamilya. It's already twelve midnight and yet we are still talking here.

"Doctora Menaid must be tired. Huwag na natin silang abalahin pa." Albun is filipino, while Helerna Regus is american. So Siowojen is Fil-Am also? Why he has those cheeky eyes?

"Eun, you can sleep now. We will deal this in our own. Sorry for staying up late just to hear this shits going on right now." It was Herod's cold voice, so far away from his energetic and calm voice. Wala akong salita, tumango lang ako at tiningnan silang lahat bago umakyat sa dating kwarto.

Nasa taas man ako ay hindi ko pa rin maiwasang huwag mag-alala sa kanila. What if Herod doesn't want Hecap to be his half-brother? What if Hecap Argus doesn't want to part of Levittes clan? My mind is scrumble now, maraming senaryo ang tumatakbo sa utak ko. Maraming tanong ang bumabagabag sa akin. Helerna Regus Levitte likes me, that was Herod says. But how did she know me? Imposible namang ikwenukwento ako sa kanila ni Herod. It doesn't make sense.

About Siowojen's profession. Tama nga ba ang narinig ko mula kay Herod? Is really her mother.. dead? Then, I must be out of my mind if that's true! I mean, I did terrible things to Siowojen Ailben R. Parkers! I really regret doing it. Shit. Conscience is really big trouble. Isa-isang pumasok sa isip ko ang ginawa ko sa kaniya. I told him that he is fake, he is cold and sociopath! Damn. Damn. I shouldn't have said that to him!

When my friends set up a date for us, he did confess that he likes me.. but I don't accept him. From that day he distance his self from me. Am I that cruel? All he did was to make me feel that he really adores me, he even sacrifice his test scores so that I got highest score at the class. And yet I judge him harshly and I hate him that much.

Baliktad.

Dapat siya ang nakakaramdam nito hindi ako, pero bakit ako pa ang mas nasasaktan sa kaniya kung ako naman pala ang nakakasakit sa kaniya? Dahil lang sa kinamumuhian ko siya nabulag ako sa lahat? I dumped him after using him. Am I still human? Can I just dissappear? Hindi naging kami, I rejected him many times but he doesn't give up. Before we take our bar exams, we dated less than a month and after we passed. I dump him.

I was the one who leave him first.

I was the one who needed to be hated. Not him. I hated him because of who he was. I hated him because whatever I did to him in the past he still pursue me. He stay lowkey when he found out I was dating Mat, he remain quiet and did not say anything to Mateius and still I hate him?

I must be insane.

After the long thinking about the past, I found myself crying in my own pillow as I close my eyes. The first week of October is really hectic for me. It's all back to normal. Akalain mo 'yon? Noong nakaraang linggo ay parang nakatulog ako nang maayos ngayon naman ay wala na akong tulog? Galing. Ang galing mo, self. Mukha ka nang zombie nito.