Words can't describe how I feel, and I only wish there was something I could do.
But I did this and I just have to deal that I lost you.
I admit that I never tried and even pushed you away,
I never put up the fight and left us at bay.
I realize now just how bad I've been, and I find myself wondering why I let this happen.
I realize now that things aren't the same, they dont even compare.
No more color to what you built, and the fire is no longer tame.
But to take it into my own hands, I dont even dare.
I guess it really is true, that a man is dirt without his other half.
And I know an apology is long overdue, but its something I just can't find myself able to do.
This pride I have is my biggest imperfection, it's what put out the flame.
And as much as I hate to admit it, I'm the one to blame.
I can say I had other things to do, that I was busy with personal news,
But Id be lying to both me and you, 'cause that would be only an excuse.
It's true that when you love someone you make time.
And when you want something you save every dime.
It's true that when you dont take care of those things, everything dies. Everything you built for us unties.
It's true that I'm guilty, and I accept that now.
And for once; myself I pitty, and Ill never understand how.
But that's not important, because I am also grateful to you.
I think of it now and a smile comes to my face.
Rembering all those days you brought me grace.
I realize things won't ever be the same.
Yet those stormy days had nothing on us, because you were my sun.
Yeah, I remember our promise on those days.
I'm just sad that I made the meaning to it fade.
But the memory of the light in your eyes will always be my jade.
Even when Im walking in the shadows of shade.
I never let you know how important you are to me, and I regret that.
Because even though I never showed it, I was thankful you always had my back.
I've noticed that I'm not the same guy anymore, somehow you took part of me with you.
Since the day I let you walk out of that door, the day you took my hue.
I don't know where I stand or how to find my way,
Because I lost my compass on that day.
