Favourite Ex (Jenlisa)

Day 4: Still Into You

Jennie

"What?! You two had sex!?" Joy shockingly exclaims while Yeri's jaw drops. I only huff in frustration and shove my face into my palm.

"That is... well. How was it?" Yeri asks, nudging me along with her curiosity. But Joy smacks her and scoffs.

"Yah! That is not the time to ask!" Yeri only makes a peace sign as Joy sighs and looks at me.

But I'm glad that Joy, Yeri, and Irene are always ready to listen to every bullshit that's happening in my life and wake the two up just for me to tell them about last night. We gathered in my hotel room's bed first thing in the morning after I texted them about last night and Irene's coming to pick us up later on.

I sigh, remembering what just happened yesterday. "I know it's so crazy. But it's so sudden."

"I doubt that." Joy points her index finger at me. "I think you wanted that to happen as well. If you didn't, your body would've stopped her from touching you."

I contemplate what Joy just said. I hate to admit it, but she's right. I had the chance to stop her, but I'm letting it happen instead.

"Jennie..." Yeri holds my hand from the pillow in between me with soft eyes.

"What?"

"Tell me honestly, Jennie. Do you still love Lisa?" I'm dumbfounded by her words, caught off guard.

"I..." my throat constricts, literally don't know what to respond... or is it me that doesn't want to answer?

I shake my head and frustration. "I don't know. I can't answer that."

I walk out from them, trying to figure out a response. But then Joy stops me, standing before me with a concerned look.

"Jen," she sighs and squeezes on my shoulders. "We know very well how much you guys loved each other. And even though you won't say anything, I can tell that you still love her despite everything."

Yeri nods. "That's true... and too obvious."

I gulp at what Joy said. But Yeri takes a deep breath as she scoots over and holds my shoulder.

"And if that's the case, I won't stop you from loving her. But a friendly reminder babe— Lisa has Chaeyoung now. And you? You have Jisoo."

"Right. And if you two continue whatever that thing that's going on between you two Jen, it's like history repeats itself. But this time, you're the one who's cheating with her and it's upsetting."

I can't say anything. What Joy and Yeri said kept on replaying in my mind.

"Goodness gracious." I facepalm. Why do I feel pissed? Am I pissed at them? At Lisa? Or at myself?

I know what they said was right but... Why is my heart not wanting to accept that fact? Is this because of my pride? Or is it the remaining love I have for Lisa that I feel like what we're doing is right? God, I'm so confused.

Suddenly, a knock erases my cloud of thoughts as we stare at the door.

"Yoo-hoo~ Girls let's go grab our breakfast!" It's Irene. Yeri quickly stands to open the door and Irene comes in to greet us. She sits on the chair nearby and faces us.

"So, you guys finally did it after you guys broke up, huh," Irene asks as she crosses her mind. I only nod slump myself back into my bed and curl up like a ball.

"I don't know what to do anymore." I shake my head, hugging my pillow tight. "It's always Lisa. She's always been my strength and weakness. Even if I already have Jisoo, she's..."