The Mafia's Butterfly (Rewriting)

[20]

Josephina

"Josey! We're at the hospital." 

Exhausted. 

That's the only word that I can think of, that'll describe what my body is feeling right now. You know what add my mental state to that as well, exhausted. 

"You'll be okay. You have to be okay." 

I'm in a weird state right now. I can't move, I couldn't move before and I can't move now, none of my body parts are responding to my brains instructions and every muscle, every fiber of my being is completely tense or numb to pain. I can, however, still hear. I really don't know how to describe it because I want to open my eyes and smile but I can't, my eyes feel so heavy and the only thing I can do is listen because my ears seem to be working perfectly fine. 

At some point, after getting into the car, I did fall completely unconscious but I'm not sure what the timeline here is, I did semi wake up? Perhaps that's the reason why I can hear everything? I'm no medical professional here though.

"Clara, you need to let her go, for now." 

And that was the last that I heard, of them at least. I could tell that Clara was crying and although I couldn't feel it, the deeper voice that told her to let go, makes me think that she was still holding onto me for some time. I heard some doors close and frantic voices start filling the air and after that...I was gone again. 

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Clara

"Clara, you need to let her go, for now." 

My shaking hands reluctantly let go of Josey's hands. Instead of walking towards my brothers, who are walking over to the sitting area, I drop to my knees. 

"Lara, sit down." Lex's voice approaches me and then I feel hands grab my shoulders gently and lift me up so that I'm standing on my feet. 

"She'll be fine right? Lex, she'll be fine." I start whispering out loud and chanting to myself that she'll be fine and she'll come out of that emergency hospital room as fine and fresh as a daisy. 

"I hope so, Lara." Lex sighs and pulls me with him to the seating area outside of the emergency wing. 

Ezra and Felix are already sitting down. Ezra is more calm about the situation, I mean he hasn't known Josey for long and same with Lex but the two of them seem to have formed some sort of connection with her. Lix and I are more close with her because we saw each other at school all the time. Lix is sitting with his head in his hands and breathing to try to calm down. 

"Sit." Lex tells me and I nod and sit down, in between Ezra and Lix. Lex doesn't sit though and instead paces in front of us and starts making phone calls and messaging people. 

That's how it went for the first hour of sitting there. Just sitting, crying, waiting and constant worry. The doctors that are in the emergency hospital room with Josey, haven't come out yet and that's honestly more worrying than having them come out within half an hour and letting us know what's wrong. 

"Stop pacing, Lex." Ezra sighs and calls out to him. He paced so much, that he actually started moving slightly away from us because he wasn't aware. 

"Don't tell me not to pace." His eyebrows furrow and forehead creases with more concern. I look up at him from under Lix's arm. He threw an arm around me and we've been sitting like that for some time now. 

"Lex, why are you so worried?" I ask curiously and wipe away my tears with my hand. My eyes were slightly blurry from all the crying I was doing. 

He stops pacing and walks a bit closer to talk to me. His face looks confused but then it changes to shock and then it changes back to the concern he was portraying before. He stays silent for a few minutes and I raise an eyebrow at how long it's taking him to answer my question.