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How It All Began?

Hannah's P.O.V

Eating. A thing we all have to do to survive. A thing we can't live without doing. When we were young, we were taught that eating would make us grow, get stronger, give us energy, but we don't notice if we don't eat healthy we get fat, or if we do eat healthy we could still gain or lose weight, either way you could lose... When were young we don't really care much about what we are eating and what it could do to us, so we eat pretty much what we wanted. So meant we didn't care much about what the consequences that could happen to our bodies. But as we grew older things began, school got a lot harder, there were bullies, bad, evil people. Yes we may of already knew about them but what we forget is even the people closest to you could hurt us too. In school likes high school there were different kinds of people that fit to different groups with other they liked, I didn't fit in much at school, I just the little fat, weird kid, who had autism, but that's not what this story's about. This is about that fact that I can't stop overthinking what I eat and how many calories it had in it,the weight gain it would cause, and whether or not I was pretty enough, skinny, enough... I only started to care about this when I turned 13, when everything changed for me, didn't know who I was, crushing on someone í shouldn't, being bullied for whom I was trying to be even though I didn't who that was, bullied for my appearance, and bullied because I was an easy target... School became really  hard for me, I didn't understand what was happening to me? Or what was wrong with me? I didn't have much friends, I just had the voices in my head that would, make me scared to try anything new or anything unknown, made me feel every depressed cause everything I used to like to do was slowly becoming something that take all the energy out of me to do... When I was trying to find out who I was, I fell for all lot of the wrong people, which made me self harm, and eating my feelings became my new hobbies.