Vent Book.. This Is Compeleted.

Not Eating Was All I Thought About

Hannah's P.O.V

So I did what I was told, cause I know if I don't I will become fat a again, and that's not what I want. I need to ve skinny, no matter if I had to hide that fact i was do this or not. What I want to know is how has no one noticed
... Maybe they just don't care enough to put the pieces together, or maybe I'm just really good at hiding it. I don't know which one it worse. I just know that I have to skinny, I have to hit size zero, I know I have to eat but if I do the bullies would have won. And I would have lost to Ana and Mia. I need them with me, since I have no one left. Since, my dad left, things got harder, and I and that brought on Deb and Annie but they weren't her to stay, they left as so as school bullies came to the picture. Or they just got quite and Ana and Mia have gotten longer. I have to hit zero its the only way I will be happy. So I tried not eating lunch and it was okay, so I thought, as the day go by if I don't eat lunch then maybe I don't need breakfast or dinner either. I regret telling Isabella. I hate that she knows, cause that means she one step closer to finding out the truth about me. I was tired that night though, and I was so frustrated, and she was there. Someone said something about my weight earlier than day, so I told her how it used to be. And luckily when she asked if I was done with all of that, I lied and told her I was. And she told me I was strong. Yes I said I had no friends... Well erm...Isabella isn't a friend per-say, she more than a friend, well i want her to be, but I don't know if she feels the same way and to know she called me strong, has made it harder to keep doing this but if I stop I may never get any skinner. I need to hit a size zero, maybe then she will like me more. (Ana) "that's good thinking make the girl your goal, you will hit size zero I promise this way Isabella will like you more. That what you want right?" yes I do.