lost
drowning
alone
numbness to the world
you could yell,
blame me for-
everything
but i'll just-
blink
and sink-
back into my blackhole
where it's dark, so I-
can't see myself
I let it consume me
I let myself die from the inside out
a cracked smile
a paper-thin laugh
a fragile heart
a heart that was dropped and broken
but I just smile and hide it all
it's all fake
I hide from the world
no one knows the real me
I lost my old self
I don't know myself anymore-
who have I become?
misunderstood
I smile to swallow hurt
I laugh to cover tears that will come
I don't cry anymore
tears show weakness
I must hide all weakness
or I-
I"ll drown in the sea of people with standards I can't
reach
so I pretend to happy
to have a happy life
fake confidence
my reality buried
my heart missing
my soul lost-
gone since-
everything
my screaming
my mouth lying-
the truth hidden
and my eyes-
if you'd just look-
you might see-
me and my brokenness
the broken girl who carries around her secrets-
like they don't break her down-to-the-earth
but they do
I carry them on my shoulders,
they cloud my mind
one day I'll-
break
but she refuses help,
I smile and keep quiet-
they don't want to hear it anyway
if you never see my hurt, then don't-
don't pretend you get it-
don't pretend you care
I look like i've got it all figured out but I-
I am broke, my smile cracking, heart breaking, soul
shattering,
my mind running-
away
running-
till I'm gone.
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The Messed Up Mind Of Me
Разноеlife throws a lot of challenges at us. some of us can take the hits. we get back up again after we fall. but even the strongest souls can be lost in this world. and even the weakest souls can become strong. people, faces, words. words are weapons. h...
