TROUBLE

Chapter 53 "Forget"

 

(Cop’s POV)

“Who’s party is this again?” We were just sitting in Aubri’s room, basically watching at each other while we were getting dressed..AWKWARD “Aubri, are you ready?” 

All we heard was a bunch of shuffling around before Aubri finally emerged. She didn’t even look sad; she just looked empty, unsure of what emotion she should be feeling. Her hair was in a messy side braid, and her eyes were heavily circled with black eyeliner.

“You look nice!” Lyn finally said. “Harry would be all over you.” Al smacked herself in the forehead, and I had to refrain from doing the same. Of all ways to compliment her, she chose to mention the one person that could make her burst into tears?!

“Thanks.” Aubri mumbled barely separating her lips.

“I’ll be the mother tonight,” Al said. “So you guys drink as much as you want.”

“Nice,” I said sarcastically under my breath. Lyn looked around at all of us. She could probably see that we were all starting to back out. None of us really wanted to do this, so why are we?

“C’mon, guys! The boys would love to see us having a good time while they’re gone! They wouldn’t want to see us all moping around, yeah?” Lyn said getting up off the bed. “So come on! Let’s go party.”

“Yeah!” Baz said, perking up. “Louis would give me shit for being such a downer!” We all chuckled a little; expect for Aubri. “Let’s go, then!” We all started heading out of Aubri’s room, but I paused at the bathroom door.

“I’ll be there in a minute. I have to pee first.” I called over the railing.

“Okay, we’ll be in the car.” Baz responded. I turned and walked pretty quickly into the bathroom, closing the door behind me. A sigh escaped my lips as I looked up at the ceiling and reached into my back pocket and pulled out my wallet, looking down past the money and useless cards and shit. 

I walked over to the mirror, placing my wallet on the counter as I felt around. Soon I found what I was looking for and pulled out six small white tablets. I stared at them in my hand, remembering Niall’s words the last time I took them…

-flashback-

“You shouldn’t do that…” He murmured. “You could get addicted…if you’re not already.”

I looked down at the tablets, taking one between my fingers. “I’m not addicted.”

“I know you miss your mum, Cop…but this isn’t going to bring her back. You have to trust me, it’ll get better.”

“It doesn’t feel like it, Niall.” I choked out as tears started to form. “Ant won’t talk to me. He says it’s my fault she’s dead…that I should’ve stayed with her…”

“No, no, no.” He grabbed my wrists, causing the tablets to fall to the floor, and pulled me into a hug. “That couldn’t possibly be your fault, Cooper. You had nothing to do with that.” I sniveled as I fisted the back of his shirt trying to get him closer, hug him tighter. “You have to stop taking those.”

“They make me forget everything…with my mom and Ant…” I buried my face in his shoulder. “Everything.”

“I know…but you’ve got me for that, alright? You can count on me.”

I pulled away, shaking my head. “You don’t have to take care of me Niall. I’m sure you—”

“I want to though.” He kissed me firmly on the forehead. “Promise me you’ll stop doing this.” I nodded. “Say it. I want you to say it out loud.”