Your Pain Is My Misery ~ Jasper Hale

Be Gone

Violets face had been nothing but worry as she got around that morning. She kept getting glimpses in the mirror of her dull eyes and purple bags that showcased the nonexistent sleep she got last night. Her feet tapped on the ground whenever she had a moment to think, her anxiety attacking and making her heart rush as if she was on a roller coaster. She hated that she hadn't saw Jasper since the incident. She knew he had to be struggling for losing control like that. And she wanted to be there for him, to talk and comfort him. But she also knew that he needed space, as he hadn't texted or called her back after the numerous messages she left.

As she drove in her car she placed a CD into the radio. Which mouths ago she realized was the only way to get some actually good music around here, as the radio stations sucked or to where static. The lyrics however did little to comfort her as she thought about the train reck that happened last night. She sighed and pressed on the speed, trying to get to school faster than normal.

As soon as she pulled into the parking lot she noticed the absent cars. The Cullens seemingly missing. She thought a second about waiting, as she noticed Bella doing. But after a thought she realized she should just go to class and hope they show.

They didn't of course. She realized the second the bell rang and Alices chipper voice wasn't filling her ear with gossip or fun ideas....they weren't coming, as Alice loved to be on time. This made Violets worry sky-rocket but she kept quiet, having to turn off her phone to resist the urge to call Alice.

Her day had gone by agonizingly slow, each period felt like it lasted hours. The drive home just as long. As she pulled into the parking lot she felt a shock of excitement go through her as she saw what her sub-conscious recognized as a Cullens car. The excitement dimming as she saw it was Edwards. She pulled in and got out, right after Bella it seemed since she also just got out. Violet watched as the girl walked forward.

"Edward. You're here." He stands by the house. Bella hurries toward him, but slows when she sees his cold, distant face; an unreadable mask.

"Walk with me?" Bella turned, looking at Violet. Violet gave her a smile

"I'm not you keeper" Violet said with a quick and forced smile. She turned to Edward "Have you seen Alice or Jasper?" She asked, her smile dropping with urgency replacing it.

"They are at home, and busy." It was a lie. Obviously, they weren't to busy to send her a text or call. But Violet dropped it anyways, reminding herself Jasper had his family, and they would help him without her. She reminded herself she doesn't need to be with him to let him know she cares.

"Okay. Well...I...am going take a nap, see you both later" Edward nodded and gently takes Bella's hand. Dread fills Bella and Violet felt it, but Bella lets him guide her toward the woods...

Violet enters the house, watching the two retreat into the woods. Violet pulls her phone out and dials Jasper's name.

"Hey Jasper, I know you probably need some space...but I want you to know that Bella doesn't blame you. And...well I'd like to talk to you about this in person. So as soon as you can, call me back."

***

"...Hey Jasper, can you send me a text or something...I just need to know your okay....and I want to see you..."

***

"Jasper, I know you are with your family, and they care about you, so I'm not worried. Okay that's a lie I am worried, but that's because I really care about you and I know how hard you are on yourself. But I just wanted to say..I love you and I need, or want you to call me Cowboy...alright?"

***

"Okay. I mean Hey Jasper...I'm taking a nap, so if you call...just know I'm sleeping...oh god this was weird you dont need to know this. Forget this bye....uh call me...please"

Violet sighed, laying her head on the couch, closing her eyes, and letting the darkness take a hold of her.

"Violet" Violet opened her eyes to realize someone was shaking her. She looked up to see Charlie over her looking worried.

"Uh...what?" She asked, sitting up. He had a worried look on his face

"Do you know where Bella is?" Violet looked around the room for a moment and realized it was night. The room being dark and full of shadows now. She looked back at Charlie with a frown.

"Um..no? Last I saw her she was with Edward" she said with a question in her tone, noting the fear that radiated off him. He didn't bother to answer her unasked question and instead continued the interrogation

"Where?" Violet seemed to put the pieces together, realizing he didn't know where she was. Violet suddenly looked out the window again, now the darkness spiking fear in her as she realized Bella was out in it. The worry she had left behind in her sleep suddenly hitting her like a truck.

"The woods, they went into the woods..."

***

Half the town is gathered - a tired rescue party that includes Mike Newton and Jacob Black and Violet Andrews. Charlie, beside himself with worry, pores over a map with Billy and Harry Clearwater.

"I'll call the Cullens again. Her note and Violet said she and Edward went for a walk."

"They left town, Charlie." Billy said to Charlie just as Violet walked in frowning, she looked at Charlie, her face looking miserable. Everyone had seen how the girl was blaming herself.

"Charlie I'm so sorry" Charlie gave the girl a look

"Violet it's not your fault"

"Yes, yes it is. I should have went with them"

"Violet" Jake placed a hand on her shoulder but she quickly shook it off

"No" she shook her head. Her mind thinking of everything that could have happened. Jacob didnt know the blonde well, but looking at her now he knew she cared for Bella just as he did.

"Hospital said Doc Cullen got a big job somewhere else." Harry puts a reassuring hand on Charlie's shoulder. Violets eyebrows scrunched in confusion. New job?

"We'll find her, Charlie, Violet." Charlie is glad for the comfort of his two friends.

"Charlie!" Charlie spins to where Jacob points, Violet doing so as well. She watched as someone emerges, a tall, strong Quileute Indian with cropped hair and a fierce expression. He's carrying Bella. Relief filled the girl and she let out an audible sigh

"It's Sam Uley. He found her." Charlie bolts to her; he's never moved faster in his life. He wraps his arms around Bella, lifting her from Sam's arms.

"Thank you, Sam. Thank God." Violet now seeing Charlie holding her let out a deep breath, watching as he carries Bella to the house, cradling her. Harry and Billy give Sam a nod of praise and gratitude. But Sam backs away, avoiding any accolades. Jacob grabbed Violets arm pulling her with him- jogging alongside Charlie, peering at Bella with worry.

"What were you thinking, Baby? Why were you out there?"

"He's... gone." Violet looked confused for a moment, and her eyes widened she sucked in a breath and silently prayed what she was imagining wasn't true

***

Bella was curled in a fetal position in the middle of the bed. Then at its foot. Under the blankets. On top of them. In various different arrangements. Violet watching her the whole time frowning .

Violet stands up from the seat in Bellas room she had been sitting in for two hours now. She exits the room quietly and enters her own.

Violet pulled her phone out, and pressed the call button.

ring.....ring....ring

Ding...please leave a voice mail after the beep...beep.

"...Jasper? I sware to fucking god if you...if you left. Without so much as a goodbye?....like some kinda theif in the night. I-I I will never talk to you again. You hear me? If you really left...." she sucked in a breath as tears began to fall down her face. "dont bother coming back."