Destiny

Beautiful Misstep

Son Ye Jin POV

The next day, both of us go for my appointment with Dr Lee Ha Na. Her private clinic is in Cheongdam and when I said I am coming, she slots me in near lunchtime as she can close her clinic for other patients. Since she has many VVIP and celebrity patients, she knows how much we care about our privacies hence she will slot special time for these two groups. She had my blood drawn as soon as arrived and we need to wait an hour or so to know the result. While waiting, she asks me a few questions which I believe standard sets of questions when people come for a pregnancy test. 'When is the last time you had your period?', 'Is your period regular', 'Did you take your pills on time?', 'Have you ever missed your pills?', So on and so forth. I can see her lips curve into a little smile as she jots down my answers.

I am holding his hands firmly as we wait for Dr Lee to get my blood test result. I have never been this nervous not even when I took my SAT result. I do not know why I am so nervous when I already know that I am indeed pregnant. Luckily, Hyun Bin is there by my side. Since yesterday, he had done nothing but reassuring me that things are going to be fine and he will take full responsibilities. I know that I can count on him. I am more worried about myself, am I truly ready to be a mother? Can I be a good mom? Can I handle a baby as I have zero experience in childcare? The only baby that I ever look after is my niece, Sophia. That's it.

The staff nurse came in with an envelope and pass it to Dr Lee. She opens the envelope and read the content and smile. "Congratulations, Son Eon Jin ssi. You are pregnant." she put the piece of paper of my blood test result in front of me. Hyun Bin already flaunts his dimple smile as he sees the results. As for me, I smile forcefully. It's not that I am not happy, but there are just too many things going inside my mind that I cannot be genuinely happy. "Songsaenim, you said that the pills work almost 100% but why am I still pregnant? Does it has any side effects?"

She just smiles. Probably I am not the first person who ask about this. "Why do you ask, Son Eon Jin ssi? Are you not happy that you are pregnant? If you do not want the baby, it is still early if you want to you know, abort it." I am surprised how she can sound so direct like that but it's part of her job to consult I guess,

I shake my head vigorously. "No, I am not going to have an abortion. I just want to know how it can happen when it never happened before though I forgot to take the pills for a few days."

Dr Lee nods and she tries to explain to me so that I can understand. "Ok, you know how contraceptive pills work right? It prevents you from ovulating to avoid you being pregnant. Every medicine has its side effects and obe of the side effect of the pills is it disturbed your menstrual and ovulation cycle. When your cycle has been disturbed your period and ovulation days can be irregular. This may explain why previously nothing happened when you missed the pill as probably you missed it not on your ovulation days. But this time, you happened to missed it on the days you are most fertile. I think that's the explanation on your case. I know this is a huge shock for you did not expect it to happen but rather than seeing this baby as an accident or a mistake, wh don't you think it as a gift. Trust me, it helps you to feel less worried or anxious." she grabs my hand and gently pats it to calm me. She then turns to Hyun Bin. "What about you, Mr Kim. I see you have been smiling since I broke the pregnancy result. Are you happy?"

"Very much. I agree with you, Dr Lee. This baby is our unexpected gift."

"I always feel relieved when the baby daddy is 100% committed to this journey. It matters a lot for the mom. You going to be okay, Son Eon Jin ssi. Take time to digest this shocking news but things are going to be fine." her gentle smile lessens my anxiety a little.

"But doctor, I still take those pills every day these past few weeks does it has any effect on the baby? Wouldn't it disturb its growth? And... I did consume alcohol because I did not know. I heard alcohol is not good for the baby."