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Son Ye Jin POV

"Uwwweeeekkkkk......uwwweeeekk," I don't know how many times have I vomiting already until what's left to throw up is only water. I have been sitting by the toilet bowl for minutes now. Suddenly I feel someone rubbing my back smoothly helping me to feel better. "Did I wake you up? Sorry," I feel bad that he too keep waking up from sleep every time I throw up as I made sounds in the toilet. Light sleeper like him will easily be awake.

"Why should you be sorry, there is nothing to be sorry about," he keeps rubbing my back. "Feels better?" he gives me a wet towel for me to wipe my mouth and a glass of water to rinse.

I heard my friends and people around me talking about morning sickness when they were pregnant, but I do not know it is this bad. I don't expect that you can vomit multiple times in a day even when you had not eaten anything. Will this continue for the whole 9 months? If so, I do not know how I will survive this frequent nauseous and throwing up. It's been only about three weeks since I found out, but I am already lack of energy because of this pregnancy.

He brings me a glass of lukewarm water with a slice of lemon for me to drink and rehydrate myself. I drink the water slowly to wet my dry throat. "Mihane, Oppa," that's the only thing I can say.

"What are you apologizing about? There is nothing to be sorry," he tidies up the hair that covers my face.

Seeing how patient he is with me and taking care of me makes me breakdown in tears. I am always an independent girl who does things on my own and looking at my state now, I feel like a burden. He got panicked seeing me suddenly crying.

"Hey, what's wrong? Are you feeling sick? Do you want to go to the hospital?" he wipes my running tears using the back of his palm.

I shake my head "I feel like a total troublesome. You do not get a good sleep as I always wake you up with my bathroom visits. You wasted a lot of food as I can't eat. The nauseous is killing me that I could not even do anything other than lying in the bed. I have become a burden," I said in my weep.

"No, baby, no. You are not a burden to me. I understand what you are going through now. It is not something that you asked for but you just could not help it. Don't cry, I know this shall pass soon one day we will go through this together and I will keep being by your side," he gives me a warm embrace and soothes me with his words. "

After I calm down, he tucked me to bed and turn on the diffuser on the side table. To reduce my nauseous feelings, I diffused the peppermint and ginger essential oil. It helps me a little bit. I have a severe morning sickness after midnight to early morning. It will get better for a while before it started back late in the afternoon for a couple of hours until the evening around dinner time. But, if I smell or eat something that not suits my taste, I will throw up again.  When my dizziness strike, I can only lie down in bed until the feeling subsides. I also do not have an appetite. Dr Lee advice me to eat healthy food but how to eat healthy when I cannot take seafood or fish at all as it will just make me vomit. Even eating poultry also caused the same most of the time. The only foods I can take without throwing up are crackers and fruits besides water and sour fruit juice. I am afraid this will make my baby unhealthy. I hope this phase of pregnancy will stop soon.

The reason why we have not yet plan for our marriage is that Bin will be busy with his new movie, Bargaining. Hyun Bin's movie has started production and the shooting will start in 2 days. He has been busy making calls to his manager trying to adjust the schedule as I know he kind of feels reluctant to have shootings out of Seoul.

"Yeobo, everything is okay?" I asked when I see he looks quite troublesome. When his hair is dishevelled and all over the place, I know he is thinking hard.