Hazel's Sweet Revenge

Kabanata 11

*** Sabrina's ***

I was just drunk. Walang malisya, katuwaan lang. I felt an air of intense consciousness because...
I was drunk.

Napahilamos ako ng mukha habang nakaupo sa sofa. It happened almost two days ago but the memories of that night still lingers.

Is there a point in your life that you find me attractive?

Bakit hindi ko nalang sinagot?

I should've said NO to save myself from all the teasing. But heck! I ended up consuming a drink down and implied the truth even without being stated. 

That was worse than saying no.

"What's happening to you idiot?" I asked myself.

Dalawang araw na akong nabubulok dito sa inuupahan kong unit. My bed is undone. The kitchen sink was piled up with unwashed plates. There were a couple of beer cans thrown on my center table, and this cold, rotten pizza in front of me was making all the misery even worse. 

Talking about shittiness, I don't feel like going out lately. This is not me.

The television had become my background noise as my mind went too far searching for answers. I wasn't fond of watching cliche movies and all that romance, but heck, I ended up watching one. I thought it would be a good idea to forget the fact that I was being hypnotized by this certain person, but boy was I wrong!

Hazel is my nemesis who suddenly became a good friend. She helped me solve my family issues. She had become the person to whom I could tell everything.

"Yes, I was just drunk. Walang meaning ang lahat ng 'yon. Katuwaan lang."

I convinced myself enough to make myself go to class the day after. It's just the same as before. My friends would greet me bago sila tumungo sa kani-kanilang klase.

I remained unperturbed despite my desire to know why I suddenly felt nervous and uneasy with Hazel being around.

She's there in the background, and I am glad that she has never laid eyes on me.

". . . They might even throw your manuscript in your face. Some editors don't even want to take the paper, but they will let you read it right there in front of them. They will totally whip you into shape, and the most you can do is learn what you can out of the situation."

Our professor told us a story about her experience abroad when she took her internship at a famous publishing firm.

However, my mind is traveling elsewhere. I was seated far back kaya nilubus-lubos ko na titigan siya mula rito. I had never stared at Hazel this way; usually I was busy doing random sketches, but she surely got my attention now.

She had her hair up in a sloppy bun. Even from here, I could see her baby hair, which, while not particularly attractive, I found erotic. She has a seductive neck. It seemed as though my nose wanted to get trapped there.

You find me attractive?  — I could still hear her voice.

Yes, Hazel, to answer your question. I find you attractive. You always are. You have a face that would turn one's head. Your left cheek dimple adds to your compelling attractiveness. Your smile is as wise as your eyes. You handle situations confidently, and you are extraordinarily bright.