Game Over

Chapter 4

Juliet

"I miss you. Everyone misses you really. Mom and dad left town again. Probably because they can't bare to look at me this time of year." I whispered softly, plucking strands of grass out of the ground.

"You would have been 18 today if it wasn't for me." I mumbled, feeling a hot tear burn its way down my cheek.

I stared sadly at the tomb stone in front of me. Feeling the dread and guilt creep its way into my heart as it always did.

Julian Johnson
2000-2016
Loving son, brother and friend.
"Remember the laughs. Not the tears. Remember me. Not the pain."

"I know life goes on... But it's not the same without you Julian. Nothing's the same." I whispered.

The air around me was silent. No wind or breeze desturbed the peace. There was no one else in the cemetary except for me. Like usual.

The graves around me was silent and eary, waiting for their loved ones to come and visit them too. And I wondered how often they got visitors.

I sat back in the shadow the tree next to Julian's grave casted on the grass. I sighed and looked up at the sky through the thick branches, squinting my eyes as a sharp ray of sunlight shone through the leaves.

"Mom and dad rarely smile anymore. And it's all because of me." I said softly.

"You can say that again." I gasped as the familliar voice reached my ears.

I spun around and saw Noah standing behind me, wearing his usual scowl whenever he looked at me.

I quickly wiped the tears from my face and stood up from the ground awkwardly, not really knowing what to answer to that.

"What are you doing here?" I asked softly, cursing myself for sounding so weak.

"What do you think?" He snapped, his eyes turning angry.

I sighed and closed my eyes. I pushed the negative emotions down and smiled at him opening my eyes again.

"Are you here to see Julian?" I asked.

He scoffed. "Yeah. I didn't know you'd be here."

The way he looked at me sent shivers down my spine. But not in a good way. I felt like I was burning under his gaze. And I couldn't help but take a step back from him.

"Why wouldn't I be here? It's our birthday." I said softly.

"You mean it's your birthday. Thanks to you, Julian doesn't have a birthday anymore." His words cut through me like a thousand knives.

I felt my chest constrict at the truth of his words as I stared at him in shock. The smile on my face completely wiped off.

Regret flashed through his eyes as a sob escaped my mouth that I failed to stop.

I pressed my hand against my mouth to stip any other embarressing sounds of weakness that wanted to come out. But I still felt the tears running down as I was unable to look away from Noah.

I knew he blamed me for Julian's death. Just like everone else did. But this is the first time he said it out loud.

"I... I shouldn't have said that." He whispered, his green eyes locked on mine.