Harry Styles Imagines

half a heart

Description - you both attend a ball, after having broken up, without knowing each others going

tw - cancer mentions, self deprecation

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It has been exactly a year, today, that you and Harry had broken up.

Your relationship was the best thing that had ever happened to you and you wouldn't have changed it for the world. However, towards the end you were becoming really self conscious and as a result, you distanced yourself more from Harry. He would always comfort you and tell you that he would be there for you whenever you were ready to talk. He was a really good guy. Still is, a really good guy, but you let your insecurities weigh you down. Before you knew it, everything became so dark and negative - something you didn't believe Harry deserved.

You were the one that broke the relationship off after two and a half years. The best two years of your life. You did it because you couldn't stop the thought of Harry leaving you one day for someone better. You never would be able to tell Harry that because it sounds pathetic, no matter how true it is. You thought you were protecting yourself from future damage when you broke it off, but really you just hurt the one person that really loved and cared for you.

You never told him the real reason for leaving him, instead you told him that you didn't love him anymore. You replayed the moment in your head every night.

It haunted you.

It haunted you because it's not true.

Everyday, you regret not opening your heart, fully, to him and allowing him to help you through whatever the hell you were going through. You regret saying you didn't love him. Hell, you loved him more than anything in this world, but you'd crushed his heart and you knew he would never forgive you for it. You avoided his calls, texts and gifts for the months he sent them, after the break up. He stopped when he got the message that you didn't want anything to do with him.

You'd left him with no hope. Worse yet, no love.

You woke up from another nightmare. You got them every night. Some worse than others. You used to get them before Harry, but when you were with him, next to him, they seemed to go away.

It was currently 8am and you knew it was about time to get out of bed anyways. Today you were attending a charity ball. You were going with your good friend Madison. Madison had been your best friend since birth and was there for you through and through - except from the time she didn't speak to you, for a week, after you'd broken up with Harry because she was so angry that you'd done something so stupid. Madison always tells you there's still hope for you both.

The charity ball was a new event in which was being hosted by a cancer foundation. This was something you felt very passionate about, since you'd lost your mum to cancer only a few years back, and to be involved in the fight against cancer meant a great deal to you.

Madison was going to come over to yours, to pick you up, at 6pm which gave you ages to get ready. So you went about your day as normal; going on a run, having lunch, cleaning and doing some work for your boss. You worked in a magazine company and you were involved in doing all the charity work for the company. For example writing articles about charities, or hosting events to raise money, or, like tonight, attending charitable events and reporting on them. You were hoping to get a promotion soon so you were always working really hard, which was also the perfect distraction from thinking about Harry all the time.

It was now 4pm and you decided it was best to start getting ready. You had a long shower, to make sure you smelt fresh, and then proceeded to do your hair. You curled it and put it up into a messy bun to try and make the curls even curlier. You next moved onto your makeup and kept it very simple. You were never one to be excessive and over-the-top with your makeup. You went for a soft smokey eye look with a matte nude lipstick. You liked the way your hair was looking in a bun so neatened it out a bit, pulling strands out to shape your face, and put some hair pins in to help it stay in place.