We Found Love

seventeen

When August and I got back home after the trip, Jennie had us head down to the studio to film the usual interviews for We Found Love. She had asked us our thoughts about what had happened the past week, any new changes in the "relationship", and what you thought about your partner.

I was mostly telling the truth when I answered. But obviously I couldn't tell the camera my conflicting and self-conscious thoughts that were amplified during the beach trip.

So, when I called over Kira and Isla to my apartment, that was the first thing I told them.

"And that's what had happened. In all honesty, the kiss made me more confused instead of it clarifying anything between August and me." I say after explaining everything to Kira and Isla.

Isla spoke up first. "I don't see anything that could indicate any confusing feelings. I mean, you and August kissed. To be more specific, the two of you kissed when there were no cameras. Why else would he do that unless he liked you back?"

"But on the other hand, I understand where you're going at," Kira interjects. "You know August's feelings about you, and the fact that he doesn't feel the same way. It's understandable that you think he just kissed you in the heat of the moment."

"Kira! People can change!" Isla exclaims and crosses her arms. "Anyways, all you negative Nancys are just being pessimistic. I think this is a good thing! The fake romance between the two of you is now blossoming into something true. Isn't that refreshing?"

I sigh heavily and lean back on the couch. "I don't know. I want to believe that, but I can't seem to do so."

Kira nods and sits up. "Maybe do the obvious thing and talk it out with him? When there are no cameras? There's no better way to clarify things than talking it out."

I shrug. "I've never explicitly talked about my feelings about him to him. It's always been August who seems to bring up that topic." I shake my head, a memory coming to mind. "Also, the last time I confronted my feelings to him, it didn't end well. I don't want that to happen again."

"Then don't do what you did before," Kira explains. "Instead of you explaining yourself, have August do the explaining. You can't be the only one sharing out your feelings to the world, I think it's only fair if he gives you his thoughts for once."

Isla nods enthusiastically. "Now that, I agree. Toughen up and make August uncomfortable this time around!" She exclaims, grinning.

I smile at the enthusiasm. "I could always try that. And if things go horribly wrong again, I just have to remember that my contract with We Found Love will end by the end of this year."

Isla pouts at the mention of the contract. "Speaking of that contract, that's such a terrible move your father did! Forcing you to quit We Found Love for his sake?"

Kira nods. "There's plenty of other ways to make a compromise, but I guess your dad decided to go the easy way." She glances at Isla and then me. "Sorry, we're talking shit about your father when we shouldn't."

I wave a hand. "To be honest? I'm not really fazed. He's barely been around so to me it also makes little sense as to why he cares so much about me now." I huff and stand up. "Enough of all this talking, I'm hungry. Who wants to order takeout?"

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"You know, I'm actually really glad that you agreed to come along with me while I go present shopping."

One of the main activities for the week was to prepare and set up for Christmas. With everyone knowing that I would be leaving We Found Love by the end of the year, Gail decided that August and I's "marriage" would end with a Christmas episode and a departing before the New Year.