bleeding tears

I don't know what you mean

Chloe's POV:

"Do you want to tell me about it", the brunette spoke softly as her hand ran through my hair. I freed myself from her arms and sat up, preparing myself to talk but the tears wouldn't stop running. "Take your time", Beca let me know and her hand reached for my cheek. Gently she wiped away a tear with her thumb and I could feel my heart starting to beat faster.
"I...almost...ki...killed...a...patient", I finally managed to stutter. "How did that happen?", she wanted to know and I carefully explained the story. "I'm so sorry", Beca clarified and I could see the sympathy in her face. "And then I even had an argument with my girlfriend", I pointed out, not being sure whether it was the right thing to say or not.

Beca's POV:

Chloe had a girlfriend. I needed a moment to adjust to that fact even though it shouldn't actually affect me. "Everything okay?", Chloe wondered when she saw me staring at the wall. "Oh...yes. Continue", I made sure and looked back at her. „What did you argue about with your girlfriend, if I may ask?", I questioned carefully. "Uhm...just about the mistake I had made in surgery and how I have been kinda off towards her lately", the ginger expressed seeming to have calmed down, "nothing serious though."

I nodded but I had the feeling that what she said about the argument wasn't the whole truth.

"Thank you", Chloe mumbled shyly and a smile formed on her lips. "Not for that", I told her and winked.
"Is everything fine with you? Do you have any pain?"- "I'm good", my answer filled the room.

I heard the door handle getting pushed down and moments later Doctor Torres stood in front of us. "Hey I just wanted to check up on you, but as I can see Doctor Beale already did", the kind orthopedist announced and glared at Chloe, who had stood up from my bed faster than a cheetah running through the savannah.
"Yup", the redhead responded awkwardly. The skeptical look of the black-haired doctor could not be missed and I didn't quite know how to act. "I better get going", Chloe proclaimed and walked passed Torres heading out of the door.
The doctor shook her head in confusion before she left as well.

Chloe's POV:

That was embarrassing and it was dangerous. I'm not allowed to build an emotional bond of any kind with a patient in this hospital. Beca was wrong. I was risking my job and my relationship every time I was near her but I had never felt safer in anyone else's arms. And the way she smelled, addictive. And how she comforted me without any hesitation, precious.

I was sitting in the cafeteria having lunch, which didn't taste that well, when Callie approached me. "Beale, what was that?", she laughed, meaning the situation in Beca's room. "I don't know what you mean", I lied and kept looking at my plate. "Come on, you were sitting on her bed and you felt caught when I entered the room", she explained, "I'm not gonna blame you" - "Mhm", I said and poked in my food.

Arizona sat down next to us and Torres suddenly became quiet and smiled nervously, looking at Arizona. I knew Callie had a crush on Arizona because it was pretty obvious, but I was able to totally ignore that because I knew that Arizona only loved me.

But did I really still love her?

"Hey", the blonde said in her bubbly voice.
"Do you wanna finish my lunch?", I asked, passing her my plate. "It looks like somebody has vomited on it, no thank you", she refused to eat it and pushed the plate away from her.

It's a bad one :/
Sorry guys
Thanks for reading :)