bleeding tears

It's dark outside anyways

Chloe's POV:

I was sitting in my car, in the parking lot of the hospital, waiting for Arizona to be done. Actually I should have been home for two hours already but the the check-up on Beca Mitchell forced me to stay longer. It was half past 9 and Arizona had texted me that she'd be done any minute.
I zoned out, thinking about the way Beca had looked at me and how her eyes had widened whenever she had said something.
I shook my head. "No Chloe, you are not allowed to think like that, not about a patient", I muttered to myself.

"Who are you talking to?", my curious girlfriend asked after she had opened the car door and let herself sunk into the passenger seat. "Huh? Oh right sorry. I was just talking to myself", I laughed, being in a better mood than this afternoon. "How was your d-", but Arizona didn't let me finish my sentence. She pressed her lips against mine and let her tongue slide into my mouth. "Don't talk, sweetie", she breathed as she let go of me to take off her shirt. I did the same. Eagerly she grabbed my waist and pulled me onto her lap. We kissed passionately and I was able to forget, what I had thought about before my girlfriend had entered the car, for a moment.
She placed gentle kisses on my neck and a quiet moan escaped my mouth.
"Let's move to the back of the car", I suggested, biting my lip playfully. We crawled into the backseat and continued where we had stopped.

Worriedly I looked around. "What if anyone sees us?" - "No risk, no fun", Arizona joked, "don't worry, it's late so there should be hardly any people and it's dark outside anyways."
I felt my lust growing. "You are right", I agreed with her, "a little 'party' never killed anybody!"

10 Minutes later we were done, breathing as if we had just ran a marathon. The thoughts of Beca made their way back to my mind. My mood dropped. I was so worried about her. What if there won't be a transplant in time?
"Let's drive home", I said while looking at my girl, trying to ignore my thoughts. "You did good", I added with a smirk.
We both got dressed before I started the engine of my car.

Arizona and I didn't live together but she decided to spent the night at mine. Her car she was leaving at the hospital.
My house wasn't far from work, about a five minute drive but with traffic these five minutes could easily turn into two hours.
Luckily it was late so the streets were empty and a few minutes later I parked the car in front of my house.

"Should I cook something for us?", I asked my girlfriend while I put off my jacket and shoes. She glanced at her watch. "It's already so late, Chloe", the blonde girl clarified. "Yes but aren't you hungry?", I wondered and made my way to the kitchen. "I am", she answered. "So what's the problem?", I wanted to know, „I will just make some noodles and a light sauce."

45 minutes later I was lying in my bed, my girl next to me. "Goodnight hun", she whispered and yawned. "Goodnight", I echoed and gave her a goodnight-kiss.

"Beca no, please please hold on. I need you. Don't give up, please", I cried as I stood next to her, trying to keep her alive. "You will get a new heart, just hold on a little longer", the tears were streaming down my face. "I'm sorry, I'm so exhausted", she whispered weakly and shut her eyes after she had pressed my hand one last time. I shook her and screamed: "BECA, DON'T LEAVE. PLEASE OH PLEASE! YOU CAN'T GIVE UP!

I opened my eyes and looked into Arizona's eyes. "Hey, are you okay? You dreamed", she wanted to know and stroked my head. I was really sweaty and kind of confused. "I will go grab a glass of water", I told my girlfriend before I stood up and walked out of the room.
"Fuck", I mumbled to myself as I was leaning against the kitchen counter, rubbing my forehead.

She was everywhere. I couldn't stop thinking about her and now she even appeared in my dreams. What was happening to me? I didn't even really know that woman....

Hey 👋🏻
I'm not that proud of this chapter, especially not the end but I hope you like it anyway :)