'Til Your Last, Melody.

Track 6

Chapter 6

It is another day for me to feel dizzying and spending time thinking of what happened last night. If in previous nights I could not just sleep my mind, now I am experiencing dreaming with my eyes wide open. I already predicted it that I will be going to spend my whole night in bed wide awake, and it really happened. Hindi ako nakatulog sa kakaisip. Actually, nagiging habit ko na siya everynight and I know that it is not good for me.

"Hindi ka na naman nakatulog kagabi kakanood ng mga series?" Lance blowed me a question.

We're in the cafeteria right now and I know that it is not a good place for me to take a rest. A crowd pleasing and too noisy place, but somehow it also helps me to relax lalo na't kanina ko pa napapansin ang tingin ng mga tao sa'kin. Actually noong nasa library pa lang ako ay iba agad ang tingin ng mga estudyante sa'kin. Someone even talk behind my back.

"So he and hannah are dating? or they just hooking up?"

Nagbabasa ako ng libro nang narinig ko ang pinaguusapan ng mga estudyante sa kabilang table. I am just not sure kung sinong lalaki yung tinutukoy nila, but their eyes are looking at me intensely.

"I don't even know! but the real problem is both of them are doing excellent job in terms of academics so I just hope they won't get expelled."

Yan yung mga naririnig ko kanina kaya umalis ako sa library at sinamahan na lang si Lance dito sa cafeteria but, I thought I could be safe in the whirlwind of those students. They just getting worse and louder. Even lance is asking me why are they looking at me, they are not just looking at me! they are investigating me like I did a horrible thing!

"Siya pala 'yon? Hala kawawa naman si Hannah. Sana hindi siya maexpelled." A group of girls as they passed me by.

"Hoy Troye! Ano ba yang mga pinaguusapan nila about sayo? kanina pa sila tingin nang tingin sayo habang may tinitignan sa phone nila."

"I don't even know man! Miski sa library ay may naririnig na kong mga kwento about sa'kin!"

I didn't get a reply from Lance 'cause he is now busy surfing at his phone. He then looked at me when he noticed that I am intensely looking at him.

"Bro you fucked up!" As he showed me what's on his phone.

It is a picture of me and Hannah kissing in the library. The photo are very clear so you can really see me and Hannah in the picture. The photo was taken at the outside of the library.

Nang maproseso na sa akin ang nasa larawan ay kinuwa ko ang aking bag at iniwan si Lance na tunganga. He's screaming my name but I am so desperate right now to find Hannah and talk about what happened last night. Samo't saring emosyon ang aking nararamdaman habang binabaybay ang daan patungo sa library kung saan ko siya huling nakita. I want to ask her if she even planned it too. If she hired a photographer to take a photo of us. I want to ask her if she's the one who spread our photo.

Pagdating sa library ay agad ko din naman siyang nakita, kausap ang mga barkada niya na para bang hindi alintana sakaniya ang kumakalat na photo namin.

"Hannah let's talk!" I held her hand and I wanted to take her to the garden which I am sure at these times there is no students outhere.

Hindi ko alam kung saan ako magsisimula dahil nagrarambulan na sa aking isipan ang mga tanong na kanina ko pa nabuo. I am confused, I am mad, I am guilty as well but I'm more consumed with anxiety and fear now. Gusto kong malaman kung biktima ba kaming dalawa o biktima lang ako, kase sa mga nangyayare ngayon, unti unti na kong nawawalan ng tiwala kay Hannah.

"What the hell did you do? Our photo was leaked online! ano 'yon? please give me a goddamn answer!" As I could no longer control my anger.

Desperado akong malaman ang sagot kase natatakot akong baka umabot pa ito sa principal at mapatawan pa kami ng parusa. I do not want to be penalized because it will affect my grades and worsen than that is, it may also affect my graduation. I can't deal with it.