ME Survivor (Book 3)

Must, Try, Push

I can't do this anymore

I understand you are trying to help

But you're making things worse

Stress is what got me here in the first place

I tell you I cannot look at food

It makes me nauseous

You say, what about soup?

I cannot look at food it makes me nauseous

You say, why don't we order in?

I cannot look at food it makes me nauseous

You say, what about another Ensure?

Must, try, push

Are you even listening?

I am shaking so hard I cannot speak

You come in and start asking questions:

~You need to call the doctor

He won't return my calls, it's a huge problem.

I'm shaking so hard, I cannot speak.

~Did you speak to the lady?

~Did she reply?

~Did you sleep?

I'm shaking so hard, I cannot speak

~What about food?

~Set the alarm

~You must go outside; fresh air needed

I'm shaking so hard, I cannot speak

Must, try, push

Stop, please....I can't argue....

You refuse to listen

Must, try, push

~We must do this, this, and that.

I cannot

~You'll never get better....

This, this, and that....now, today, yesterday

Go go go

Must, try, push

Push

Push

Push harder

Argue louder

ENOUGH!!!

Enough of this!

I will never get better

I will lose all hope with

Must, try, push

I can't make my own decisions

With things thrown on me

I can't make them on your time frame

I move a moment at a time

A fraction of an instant

Not moments

Days

Weeks

Now

Now

Now

No more now

No more Spanish inquisition

20 questions

Doctor decisions

When I can't form word

When I'm shaking like an epileptic

When all I just want to do is hide

Under the covers

And cry

And cry

Cry this out

You're a mother

You're my mother

And I love you to death

But you don't get it and I hope you never will

What I do hope is that you stop

Must, try, push

And start with

What can you do today?

What can you eat?

Let's relax

Heal ourselves

Take it easy

Can we do that?

Can I rest now mommy?

Please?