sundown musings

declutter

the semester is about to end.

piles of papers, folders and books are all over the place. finely scattered are specks of dust, crumbs of chips, and empty coffee cans. the closet is in disarray-as if a typhoon visited 'cause the clothes are not in their right places.

the room is no longer recognizable...was it the same place i started the semester with? what the heck just happened?

i set down the trash bags. i know i need to clean all this mess up. "for keeps" are on my right, while "they need to go" falls on my left. but as i look at them one by one-each notebook, illustrations, even an empty highlighter, a blue folder, that red scarf we used on a play-each holds a memory, a scene replaying on my mind, a smile, or a line i won't forget.

cleaning wasn't this hard before. it wasn't this complicated. i can't make up my mind, i just want to place everything on my right and keep them with me.

but if i will keep them...if i continue holding on when they no longer benefit me...and all they hold is a memory i can't seem to let go...they will continue to take up space.

and once my room becomes full..i won't be able to buy new things...try different experiences...or discover that there are far better things than what i have now...and create more memories.

maybe i really need to let some go. free up some space so i can breathe freely. it doesn't hurt to tidy up a bit-to keep what's only valuable and to let go of what holds me back.

s i n| "declutter once in a while"