All Alone

6

I quickly removed my shoes the moment I got home they were highly uncomfortable.. Seriously!
I took both the twins out of the car and dropped them on my bed.
They were the cutest humans I had ever seen, so innocent, so calm,so oblivious to the cruel world they lived in.

"Jane darling are you home?" an old voice called from downstairs.

"Yes I am, Nanny" I yelled.

I guess I was too loud cause Eve flinched and got a strand of her black straight hair  on her nose making her turn.
Evan on the other hand rose up his head while rubbing his sleepy eyes but gently went back to sleep.
I never noticed how long I had been standing and staring and that's when I remembered I was still on my school uniform. I threw my socks into the laundry basket and laid my blazer on my chair.
Then jumped on my bed.
If there was anything school was good  at doing it was draining all my energy. I threw the hair tie that was holding my hair off. I took a deep breath. I still had work to do. I had a chemistry assignment and some Math quiz. All that was tiring .
Eve and Evan would wake up any moment and they would need some toys to play with. I quietly left the room not needing to disturb their beauty sleep, their room is not so far just like four rooms away.
Eve and Evan loved staying with me in my room  even though they had theirs.

Every step i took echoed and come to think of it, that was what happened in nearly all horror movies victims and they barely survived like what if I died while walking. I know it sounds crazy but we all know we're living in a crazy world where everything is possible -

Oh look! I'm at their room door. I opened the door and slowly went to their toy corner and took as many stuffed animals, doll houses, dolls , action figures and whatever kids played with back to my room.

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Evan was playing some game that he got me to install and yet I didn't still know the name while Eve was watching a hair tutorial on my tablet while practicing with her dolls hair.
I, on the other hand was on my desk trying to trace my dad. I know its been like a lot of years know and i have it moved on yet. People say its a phase she'll outgrow someday but something tells me that day is never coming. Even though I have forgotten how his voice sounds when he laughs or tells stories. But I still had to find him I don't remember what age i was but I remember that when i was little i promised myself to find him and i was working towards doing that.

I bought out an old notebook from my drawer and brought the box.
It looked the same as always. I saw the cursive
From: Stephen 
To: Jane
Let the memories live
I opened the box and looked through its content.

An old torn edged picture of dad carrying me on his shoulder in front of a multi colored ferris wheel.

My first cookie I had made. I was wearing a very big chef hat and apron and held a pan with oven mittens and a heart shaped cookie.

My Lucky bracelet that did not fit.
And the picture of all three of us smiling and holding  hands.

I couldn't take it.
Every time i brought the box out i had this sudden change, I was broken. The memories weren't something tk be sad about, it was something to be excited about, to be -

"Jane dear are you here? " Mom asked as she barged in while her eyes scanned the room and caught mine.
She furrowed her eyebrows that's when I noticed I still had the picture in my hands.
"Jane what is that?" Then she turned to the twins Eve and Evan
"Go to your rooms"She ordered
And they hurriedly left.

She took a step closer and looked at the picture,

"I thought I hid all these from you" she mumbled loud enough for me to hear.

"Where did you get them?" She
questioned

I  was numb to number to answer or move a muscle I was just still , my heart racing, thoughts clouding my head.

"I asked you a question!"

If you have not noticed yet my mom has this demanding accent, her mom, my grandma was a Nigerian so Nigerians can relate. I barely know anything about them but I know their moms are no nonsense people.
  And this is not the best time to tell you this.

I used the back of my hand to wipe away the tear drop that ran down my cheek. It felt so foreign I could not remember the last time I cried and I never liked the feeling.

My mom's expression softened ,
"Sorry" she apologized

"I don't just get why you still have this i thought you had forgotten"

That was annoying, in years i and my mom had not really had that mom and daughter relationship so she barely knew a thing about me .

"How would you?" I shot back.  The words coming out a bit harsher than I expected. Her eyes flashed sadness in them.

I looked back at the picture. I was standing between mom and dad with my two little hands on my waist, a very wide smile plastered showing all the  teeth . I wore a black t shirt that was printed in white
I love them both
Bright bold and clear and a short blue jean skirt with black leggings and a white converse,my hair was packed in packed in pigtails and my eyes shone brightly.

On the right way dad wearing a black t shirt that was printed in white
I love her ⬇
With blue jeans and a white converse
He had a goofy smile like mine.

On the left was mom she wore the same as dad and had a motherly smile on her face.

when days where good

"Jane I have tried my best to understand you but you just keep on shutting me out every time i try"She paused "I even warned you about -"

"I am not in the mood for a talk" i muttered

" Okay I understand" Then she stood up and walked to the door and turned back "You have an appointment with the schools counselor after school ......please don't miss it"
Then the door closed .

Why is my life messed up??

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