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"So you're telling me that my brother actually picked a good one?" Dean joked as we turned onto the street the hotel was on.
It had taken me a few minutes but I finally spat out all that I knew about mom leaving everything she had to me.
Sam scoffed, "I got lucky. No picking involved."
"You are pretty damn lucky aren't you?" I teased scooting closer to him to place a small kiss on his cheek.
"Damn guys! I'm in an enclosed space with you! I can't escape when you do that!" Dean whined.
I shot him a 'you asked for it' look and leaned forward to kiss Sam ever so passionately.
"Guys...." Dean muttered as he pulled up into the parking lot.
"He's just jealous..." Sam murmured, chasing my lips down and keeping them held to his when I tried to pull back.
"No guys did either of you leave the light on?" Dean questioned raising his voice a little to really get our attention.
Our heads snapped up to look out the windshield finding movement in our hotel room.
"Fuck... I'm so done with this..." I grumbled pulling an angel blade out of the door pocket and hoisting myself out of the car.
"Whoa whoa whoa. No. Ehvs you're injured." Sam cautioned jumping out of the car and in my way, "we will take point okay?"
I crossed my arms but couldn't stop myself from wincing, giving away my state of health.
"That's a yes Sammy. Let's go." Dean urged already positioned by the door.
Sam joined him and they quietly opened the door and snuck in. I stood by the car tapping my foot not only in annoyance but anticipation.
"FOR FUCKS SAKE CANT YOU WAIT AND FUCKING KNOCK?!" I heard Dean yell.
Sam stuck his head out the door and beckoned me in not long after with 'the look' stuck on his face.
"It's talk time..." He mumbled as he guided me in with a hand on the small of my back.
I gave him a quizzical look but I didn't have to wait long for my answer.
"Heya baby girl."
"You little fucker." I spat.
How can he possibly have the nerve to show up AFTER shit hit the fan! What does he want? Does he enjoy trying to clean up messes?!
"That's no way to talk to your father." He scolded jumping up and sitting on the counter that had the fridge underneath it.
"Guys can you give us a minute? Maybe go get some frozen peas and a bottle of houtch? He's going to need it." I said ever so sweetly over my shoulder.
Dean gave me a slack salute and hauled ass out to the car but Sam hesitated a moment.
"You sure you don't want me to just go outside?" He asked coming up close and brushing a strand of hair out of my face making me look a little less crazy.
"Yeah babe. No witness no crime right?" I asked with a wink.
He gave me a slight chuckle and leaned down for a kiss, "don't actually kill him okay? And no blood, I didn't bring the stain remover" he winked and left to join Dean.
I faced the door until I heard the Impala's engine fade into traffic.
"I'm sorry about your mother..." Gabriel called, reminding me exactly why I was murderously angry.
"You should be. You should be more sorry you never knew her." I snapped still facing the door.
"I did know her. I watched the two of you until she remarried." He said this in such a nonchalant tone that I could have killed him right there.
"Why did you stop?" I inquired purely out of politeness.
"Uriel and his band of angry misfits decided I needed to be killed. So I fled. But mostly because it hurt." He started kicking his feet against the fridge making my nerves stand on edge.
A good minute passed of his fucking kicking before I got fed up.
I whipped around, hair flying as I did, "can you stop that?!" I shrieked.
"You have a real problem with me don't you?" He asked giving me such an innocent full of bullshit look.
I wanted to slap him, maybe even smite him. I was so angry my eyes started glowing as I stalked up to him and got up in his face, him being just above eye level sitting on the counter.
"You fucking left us." I whispered at first then let my anger through, "You did absolutely nothing for me my entire life until you showed up AFTER I had been TORTURED, AND BROKEN! I HAD GIVEN UP ON LIVING! YOU INSENSITIVE DICK! I WATCHED MY OWN HANDS KILL ONE OF MY BEST FRIENDS! HE WAS MY FUCKING UNCLE! I KILLED DOZENS OF CHILDREN AND COUNTLESS MEN AND WOMEN! I WATCHED MY MOTHER BURN FROM THE INSIDE OUT! MY BABY SISTER NEARLY DIED AND I - LOST - A - BABY!" I paused a moment to catch my breath, "AND YOU DID NOTHING?!"
The lights flickered and a crack ran up one of the windows. Gabriel still just sat there watching me.
"You aren't going to intimidate me." He grunted searching my face with concern.
"IM NOT BEING INTIMIDATING IM FUCKING PISSED. I AM USING ALL MY WILL POWER NOT TO SMITE YOU!" I screamed back whipping around and kicking the wall, making a huge hole in the sheet rock.
He hopped off the counter and came up behind me and rested his hand on my shoulder, "are you done?"
"NO!" I screamed whipping around and swatting his hand away, "YOU KNEW I WAS DATING A DEMON AND BASICALLY UNDER HOUSE AREST. YOU KNEW HE ABUSED ME! YOU KNEW AND YOU DID NOTHING! YOU LET THEM RUIN ME SO ONLY SOMEONE JUST AS BROKEN AS I AM COULD LOVE ME! I AM RUINED FOR ANYTHING BUT WHAT I ALREADY HAVE! I AM TOO SCARED TO HAVE CHILDREN. I AM TOO SCARED TO MAKE FRIENDS. IM A MESS. AND YOU LET IT HAPPEN!" I took a step back and let myself fall onto my ass on the bed. Tears threatened to leave my eyes and I gasped to catch my breath, "I honestly thought you would show up and help us one day. I thought" I had to pause to sniff and wipe my tears, "I thought you would come and save me from him. When he was torturing me I thought you would hear my prayers." I broke down into sobs letting my chin fall to my chest.
I felt the bed dip next to me and his arm wrapped around my shoulders, "I heard them, and I'm sorry I couldn't come earlier I really am. But I had almost complete confidence that you would survive. What little doubt I had was why I showed up after and why I came today."
His voice was soft and almost melodious as I cried onto his shoulder.
His embrace was warm and loving and unconditional, something I had never been able to recognize from anyone but my mother and the boys. It was comforting and safe and stirred up even more emotions than I had been unaware of.
"Sam said he prayed to you." I whimpered, "He prayed about the baby. And about Cas. And about mom..." I bareley squeaked out my words through my tears.
"I can't bring the baby back. Her body is long gone sweetheart." He sighed smoothing my hair as annother round of sobs wracked my body.
"Her? It would have been a girl?" I gasped. He simply nodded and continued after I had a chance to get some more of it out, "Your mother would probably kill me if I tried to bring her back and you know it." I did that horrible giggle sob combo but stayed quiet.
He held me close for a little while longer leaning his cheek on the top of my head.
"Daddy what about Cas?" I asked looking up at him. I felt like a five year old but in a good way. I was sad but I was protected and cared for. Calling him 'Daddy' wasn't even a stretch right then.
"I don't know sweetheart.... Something tells me that would be even more difficult..." He sighed again, wiping my tears off with the pad of his thumb.
"But you'll try won't you?" I nearly begged as I heard the Impala pull up outside.
"I make no promises." He smiled.
"Smart, you need to build up your track record first." I laughed as the door opened with Sam looking worried.
"Oh thank God. I didn't hear screaming and I thought you actually killed him." Sam said releasing a large sigh not the least bit surprised that I was now 70% okay with my dad.
Dean blundered in and almost threw the bags of food on the table, "okay, what do I need to stitch? Oh... I need to stitch the wall..." He mumbled dejectedly as he let the bag of frozen peas drop back onto the table.
Dad snapped his fingers and the wall looked exactly like it had when we walked in.
"Thanks" I mumbled, slightly embarrassed that my outburst had been noticed.
"Your welcome. Now get some sleep. I'll go try to find your mother and get her up to heaven okay?" He asked placing a kiss on my forehead and standing up.
"Okay." I breathed, "but check in every once in a while okay?" I asked.
I received a smirky condescending look, "Hey I said no promises." He remarked before clapping his hands and disappearing.