when the stars align (j.benn)

clingy

The rest of the day was spent desperately trying to tan and Jamie refusing to let me be a foot away from him. Where Jamie went, I went. The only time that it didn't apply was when Jessi pulled me into the kitchen to get drinks, which lasted for 30 seconds before Jamie trotted in and pulled me away from his soon to be sister-in-law.
"What's up with him today? He can't let you out of arms length." Jessi hums as she looks over at me while we lay out in the sun.
I simply shrug my shoulders having no idea why Jamie was being so clingy today.
"Maybe because we've been so busy. I really don't know." I murmurs glancing over at the guys who were firing up the grill to cook dinner.
"Playoffs have been really hard for the both of you haven't they?" Jessi asks as she sips her drink.
I nod my head watching Jamie laugh and cut up with his brother.
"He's been so stressed lately trying to help the team and guide the rookies and such. We haven't got to spend much time together let alone have designated days spent with each other. It's taken a toll on us both."
"And you don't take breaks ever. You've been over working your self constantly haven't you?"
I glance over at Jessi and then sigh quietly.
I never take days off, I'm always working or trying to plan for videos or social media posts.
Jessi simply sighs as she looks over at the brothers.
"I'm sure when the playoffs are over you two will be back to normal, no more overly clingy Jamie." She hums out as she sips her drink.
I nod my head as I look up at the sky thinking. My attention is pulled from my thoughts as Jamie was once again whining for me.
"Yes, baby?" I ask as I get off my chair knowing he wanted me to get something or to simply be near him.
"Can you get me another beer?" Jamie asks using his big brown eyes to help plead.
I let out a short laugh before looking over at Jordie.
He laughs and shakes his head.
"I have to drive home tonight, I need to slow down."
I simply nod my head as I walk into the house to get Jamie another beer and get another drink for myself. I'm not a heavy drinker but when your boyfriend turns into a toddler it seems necessary.
I walk back and hand over the beer after opening it for him.
Jamie smiles and kisses my temple as he pulls me into his side.
Jodie chuckles as he shakes his head walking over to his fiancé leaving us alone.
"What's with this, Mr.PDA is nasty Ill barely hold your hand in public." I tease wrapping my arm around him setting my hand on his hip.
Jamie grins and shakes his head as he looks down at me.
"I miss you." He says simply kissing my temple.
"I miss you more." I hum in response as I kiss his cheek, ignoring the smell of his beer on his breath.
Jamie mindlessly rubs my shoulder as he continues to watch the grill.
I lean my head against his shoulder simply enjoying the moment of pure peace that had been incredibly rare and scarce since the start of the playoffs.
  "Hey, B, your phone is ringing. It's your brother."
I glance over and sigh softly before untangling myself from Jamie as I take my phone and answer it.
  "Ben, what do you need?" I asks walking into the house not wanting to disturb anyone outside.
  "It's dad."
My heart drops into my stomach as I listen to my brother.
  "He took a nasty fall trying to fix something at the house and mom had to call 911 and have them come get him and take him to the hospital. It wasn't responding to her. She wanted me to tell you because she could barely talk to me."
I shake my head as my eyes tear up at the thought of my dad hurt and being unable to go to him.
  "Is he okay now? Have they ran any tests? Any x-rays?" I ask leaning against the counter letting the cool marble soothe my scorching skin.
  "Mom didn't say. She just got there with him. It happened fairly quickly so I don't know if she could truly process what was going on."
I chew on my lower lip as I was thinking of a way to be able to go to St.Louis but it just really wasn't plausible with the timing and place we are in the playoffs.
  "You have to make it to the next round then. That way we can go home and be with dad. One more win and we can leave early and be there with him."
I could tell Ben was nodding his head by the sounds I was hearing on the other line
  "If I hear anything I'll keep you updated."
  "Okay, thanks bub. If you need anything let me know. I got benched for these next two games."
  "Of course you did, you workaholic. I'll let you know. Don't stress too much about dad, okay? He's going to be okay."
I take a deep breath staring at the counter.
  "Yeah I know. I have to get back out to the Benn brothers and Jessi. Keep me updated."
  "I will, bye sis."
I put my head in my hands as I take a moment to process what happened.
  "Babe, food is ready! Can you bring out the salad from in there?"
I nod my head slightly as I push myself away from the counter and walk to the fridge grabbing the bowl of salad I made earlier and then a Mike's Hard Lemonade from the fridge as well. I make my way outside not sure still of how I was truly feeling.
I set the bowl down along with my drink before looking to Jamie as he touches my arm.
  "You have to make it to the next round."
His face reads pure confusion as I look back at him.
I truly didn't mean to say that to him. I really didn't know I said it until I read his features.
  "My dad is in the hospital and I have to be there with him but I can't unless you win the next game."
Jamie's face fall as I sit down and mess with my fingers.
  "Baby, i'm so sorry." He breathes out staring at me.
I nod my head slightly as I take a sip of my drink looking back at him.
  "Let's just eat."
He frowns but nods his head as he sits down beside me but stays silent.
I am suddenly thankful for the games I have off because I know I wouldn't be able to focus.
I've never wanted to go back home more then I do now.
Who knew St.Louis would be a place i would willingly want to go to.