Deeper night when I listened the song from His Excellency Demon Kogure (thru iPod) called "Zutto"....
It may not understand his Japanese lyrics/words but his voice, feelings and music gave me a very huge impact on a very deep inside of me.... my heart!
And the real pain came out and bursts like an active volcano with magma!
Because, from remembering my past life until present, I felt the pain and heartbreaks I had been through in the past 24 years with full of envy, failures, frustrations, and disappointments that really killed yourself... those thing I got from my mind and heart esp. the recent one from Christopher and Brent... and of course, shattered dreams!
My tears fell like a heavy rain... my chest hurts a lot... I can't opened my eyes... almost dying!
Then, after 30 minutes, here it comes the another song from Kogure-san called "Don't Cry"... this time and at least, it gives me some comfort and helps me to endure these deep pains... the song tells me to take a look around... do whatever I want... keep trying my best... just don't cry!
I have to keep my life on going no matter what challenges and sufferings yet to come in the future esp. when I love someone!
Kogure-san may be an Akuma o Devil/Demon BUT his songs tells me the real yet true feelings from my inner me... my heart, my mind and my soul. It shows what kinda heart do I have now and it does because the real pain comes to explode then later, all things went fine!
And I truly thanked him for helping me to came up and show up... now, I wanna be part of his Akumakyo!
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Memoirs of A Shinja: When My Future Unloved My Past
AdventureI was born under Catholic religion but I'm currently practicing Akumakyo. and this is the story of being a follower called Shinja!
