Memoirs of A Shinja: When My Future Unloved My Past

Doctrines over Sansrival

11/30/D.C.12 at 6:00 P.M.

Almost a single hour left for His Excellency Demon Kogure's TBS-Radio program called "Kakiiin Legend" when I should buy a broadband prepaid in order to listen him until my first flame showed up and tell something important.

SO WHAT-THE-HELL!!! What does he wanna say and I have to off at once???

He kept begging me to avail a postpaid line SIM card (Read: Php 250 per month) in order to meet their company quota... the more he keep begging me, the more I felt pressured and my ears felt brrrrrr.... as His Excellency Demon Kogure and SEIKIMA-II songs in iPod went overshadowed.

So, okay... your wish is my command!!!

And sucks... during my application for this takes 30 minutes to process and my clock keeps ticking for Demon's radio show. I keep thinking my Tuesday @ 7:00 P.M. habit!

When it finished, he and his friends were talking about his 25th Birthday last 11/24/D.C.12... They kept requesting me for Red Ribbon's Sansrival cake but generally and frankly speaking, I declined as in 100% in order to buy H.E. Demon Kogure / SEIKIMA-II stuffs, either SYMPHONIA, WHEN THE FUTURE LOVES THE PAST ～未来が過去を 愛するとき～ or even A QUARTER CENTURY OF REBELLION!!! I showed my order plan to them and he said...

"For Php 2000+??? Unlike Sansrival... at least, it costs Php 490!!!"

For Akuma's sake, didn't he realized what makes me happy for now? What makes my life keep moving on esp. during my miserable times? And didn't he realized for my being a Shinja after his cold attitude towards me for the last 11 months? HA! Another thing, was he just talking to me when he needs help from me???

So, last 12/03/D.C.12

I was badly suffered from mild depression. Every office hours, I keep controlling my emotions. I maintained my professional level but when it was lunch time, alone at my office playing ZUTTO, I hardly cried a lot as my mind went so crazy. I wanna smash everything. My chest really hurts and very painful but when I felt H.E. Demon's presence, I keep pulling myself out!

So, in the end, I haven't learned from my fellow Shinja's advice so, I read his words to keep this in my mind yet, forget the sansrival and go for H.E. Demon's discography stuffs because, as always for now, it's my deep happiness and a rare item to collect!!!

To my first flame... I CAN BE A JACK THE RIPPER SO, I WANNA SLICE HIM, CATCH HIM, STALK HIM, RAZE HIM..... KOROSEEEEEEE!!!!!