Kabanata 30
I Can't
Race licked his lips and look directly into my eyes. There's a glint of happiness on it.
“I... am not in a relationship with Challi, Luienne,” he stared at me. “And... we’d never been in a relationship before. It's only you I ever wanted.”
A words that makes my heart hammers more. I can't explain why I feel so nervous when I'm near him and talk about this things. It felt so weird. The feelings are more define now. I'm not comfortable when I'm with him.
“W-What do you mean? She said, she's getting married,” I croaked. He smirk at me, dahilan para mag-iwas ako nang tingin.
“Yes, she's getting married with Benjie, Luienne. Our batch mate and not me,” he added, making me bit my lower lip dahil sobra akong nahihiya. A long awkward silence passed when he talked again.
“So... you assumed that I'm getting married with her, huh,” he teased me. I looked away more, mas lalong nakaramdam ng hiya dahil sa sinabi ni Race.
“Why you didn't assume that I'm going to marry you, instead?” My eyes widen, gulat dahil sa narinig. The small smile crept on his lips, even if he's trying to look serious, but damn, he can't hide it from me!
“You said your going to court me!” I hissed, dahilan para tumawa ito. I feel so flush right now! Race’s voice echoed in a patio and I can't help myself but to bit my lips just to hide my embarrassment!
“Why? Is there someone you want to court you too? Tss.” He raised his brows to me, matalim ko siyang tiningnan. Is he fucking serious about teasing me?
“Busted him, let me court you. Alone,” he said with his bossy voice, napa-irap nalang ako. “Nakakatakot ang mga manliligaw mo, lahat may maibubuga,” dagdag nito na nagpakunot ng noo ko.
“Feeling ko tuloy, wala akong pag asa, babasteden mo na nga sana ako kanina di pa man lang ako nagsisimula,” he then twisted his lips.
Di ko na alam kong ano pa ang sasabihin ko. Sobrang nahihiya ako dahil sa sinabi niya.
“Lalo na ’yong seaman? Tsk! Wag ka don,” he started to mention my past suitors that I don't even give a chance to court me. I don't know if he's really that attentive to my life since we came back, kasi halos lahat nang nanligaw sa akin alam niya!
“Tapos ngayon naman si Engineer Rossdeutcher. Pinagyabang pa no’n na nagkita na kayo sa debut mo sa... Australia,” he then looked away.
A pang of pain attack me when he mention my debut. It's one of the most memorable moment of every girls life, but for me, it isn't. The only important person I had in that time was my dad and Cleo. My mom wasn't there. Challi wasn't there too. He... wasn't there.
“Alam mo bang... gustong-gusto kong makapunta sa isa sa mga importanteng okasyon sa buhay mo, and that includes your debut...” Hearing this words from him hurts me.
“I want to be your last dance. But I just can't... hindi ko pa kaya ang sundan ka dahil nagsisikap pa ako noon. I wanted to be successful, para maging karapat-dapat ako sayo... not even thinking that you might find someone else while I'm striving for myself.”
A lone tear escape in my eyes. The pain in Race’s words are visible. I’ve seen him striving hard before dahil silang dalawa lang ni nanay Atari ang magkasama. His father wasn't there for them, kaya kahit hindi ko naranasan ang maging gipit sa buhay financially, still, I understand him. Because I was once in his shoes when I lost my mother. I struggled not in money but emotionally. It's more painful, I think.
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𝑮𝒐𝒓𝒈𝒆𝒐𝒖𝒔𝒀𝒐𝒐𝒐 🍀 💜
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