Kabanata 13
Akin
“I’ll promise to you, Race. Mananatili akong sayo, kahit walang tayo." Pagkatapos kong sabihin ang mga katagang iyon ay tuluyan na akong umalis sa library at iniwan si Race na wala man lang sinabi. I maybe sound so desperate, pero hindi ko kayang umalis na lang ng hindi nasasabi kung ano talaga ang nararamdaman ko.
Dumiritso ako sa Dean's office para makuha ang mga papeles na kailangan. My father sent an email to the dean para sabihin na aalis kami, and I need to get all the papers I needed.
Papasok na sana ako sa opisina nang makita ko si Challi. Naglalakad ito palapit sa deriksiyon ko habang may malaking ngiti sa labi. Hindi ko na sana ito papansinin kung hindi lang ako tinawag ni Challi. Pabuntong hininga akong tumigil at hinintay ang tuluyang paglapit ni Challi.
“I just want to say goodbye, Wren. And I'm thankful that you're going abroad already, for your own good. And of course because of that, all of Race attention will be mine,” Challi smiled at me sheepishly. Yes, I know how Challi's plans worked too well, ’yon nga lang, late ko ng nalaman yun.
“You don't need to worry about us, Wren. Race loves me so much, and he'll never hurt me... like what he did to you,” bahagyang tumawa si Challi ng nakakainsulto sa akin, but I remained calm and stoic. “Oopps! My bad... Anyway, I gotta go, I still have a class. Take care and say hi to Tito.”
Challi waved her hands at me saka ito umalis. I just blew a loud breath bago tumuloy sa opisina.
Ilang minuto lang ang tinagal ko sa opisina dahil agad ko namang nakuha ang mga kailangan without further adoe. All papers I needed were prepared at ako nalang ang hinihintay para kuhanin iyon.
A pang of pain crawls in my system. Thinking too much. From my mother's death to my father's health.
Kasalukuyan akong naglalakad palapit sa parking lot, bitbit ang mga papeles at ibang gamit ko na nasa locker. It's a bit heavy, but surely, I can carry all of it naman. Halos lahat ng dala ko ay muntik ko nang mabitawan nang bigla akong hawakan ni Race sa kamay.
Looks so annoyed, bother and confused Race, I look at him blankly. Slowly, Race’s hands let go of mine, nang balingan ko ang mga kamay nitong nakahawak sa braso ko.
“Why didn't you tell me that you're going abroad? Malalaman ko lang ba kung wala ka na sa bahay niyo, Luienne?” A serious tone from Race gave a big impact to me.
My heart is beating so fast, nervous and scared for the feelings I had towards Race. A loud breath escape from my mouth. I tried so hard to compose words even if my lips are shaking. And tried to stay strong in front of the man who always makes me weak.
“It would be unfair of me if I'll leave you without my reasons... but on the other hand, you don't deserve it anyway. You don't deserve any explanation, you, yourself Race know what you'd done that pushed me to walk away.”
I heaved a sigh and remained my face emotionless. Ayaw kong umiyak sa harapan niya. Ayaw kong makita niyang sobrang hina ko. Ayaw kong pagtawanan niya ako dahil nagmumukha akong tanga sa harapan niya. I keep on pushing myself to him, while he keeps on pushing me away. Ano pa ba ang magagawa ko kung ayaw niya talaga sa akin? This is the best decision I ever made, kaya papanindigan ko to.
“Till we meet again, Race. And I'll make sure that whenever it is, everything I have for you are not the same anymore. I'll make sure that I ain't the Wren Luienne who's weak and shitty anymore. Goodbye, Race.”
Hahakbang na sana ako nang magsalita ulit ulit si Race. Ngayon, hindi ko na maintidihan kong bakit nangangatal ang boses nito.
“H-How about you told me earlier? Y-You're still... mine even if you aren't mine in the first place?” I didn't respond to Race and decided to walk away. Hindi ko rin alam kung bakit sinabi ko pa iyon. Alam ko namang walang magbabago.
“Mananatili kang akin kahit di kita pag mamay-ari, Wren Luienne.” Race desperately said. It was like a curse though.
As I turned my back on him, my tears are slowly falling from my eyes. Blurring my vision towards our car that parked meters away from me. My lips are shaking dahil sa pagpipigil kong humikbi nang tuluyan na akong nakaupo sa SUV. Hindi ko man lang magawang lingunin si Race dahil sa sakit na nararamdaman ko.
Unlimited tears for this past weeks. From losing my mom, from daddy's weak health because of mom's loss, until now, from losing him. He was never been mine, yet, it breaks me like a shit.
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