My Forever (Harry Styles)

Apologies

***Harry's POV***

        I can't believe how stupid I am. I want to go over to her house and beg for her forgiveness but I can't. I'm stuck at work all day till close. I swear my bitch of a boss hates me.

        I know her mom is visiting and I don't want to ruin her time with her. She has to forgive me at some point. I was just mad. I couldn't help it. I know that's no excuse but that's just the way I've always been. I'm a shit person.

***Ariel's POV***

        I cannot believe I let this happen. This was a horrible idea. I'm sitting outside of an ice cream parlor, eating ice cream with Cameron. Just Cameron. My mom decided she wanted to stay at my place and take a nap because of the long drive. Whatever, I know she just wanted to give me and Cameron some alone time. She's so clueless. She thinks that we're still friends, and that's what she always thought we were. Just friends. She never knew about us. Mostly because my dad didn't want me having a boyfriend.

        Luckily Cameron chose ice cream and not frozen yogurt. Harry works at a frozen yogurt place. I couldn't bare seeing him, plus it would just be awkward and Harry would surely beat his ass if he knew that Cameron was my ex. The one who ruined my life.

        We eat in silence for a few minutes before he breaks the silence. "Ariel, I know you will never forgive me for what I did. I can't even imagine what happened to you when I left. I just left. I know you think it was for another girl but it wasn't like that. I swear it."

        "Well that's how I see it. I forgave you too many times and gave you too many chances. Ones you didn't deserve. And I sure as hell did not deserve to do that to myself! Yes Cameron, you let me sit there. You left me alone in that. You left me to feel all that pain by myself! And you didn't even care! You didn't care to even send me one simple text to see how I was. You were too caught up in your new girl." I feel the tears slide down and hit my chest. I didn't even know I was crying till now.

        His expression is hard to read. It wasn't always like that. But now it is because I don't know how to read him anymore. His cheeks are flushed and his eyes gloss over but no tears spill over. I don't know if they're real or fake. And I don't really care.

        "I'm so so sorry. I know that's not enough but that's all I've got." He confesses. "I'm not asking you to take me back. I just need you back into my life. I don't care how, I just need you." He pleads with me. He leans closer over the table between us looking into my eyes. My mind is spinning. I can't think straight.

        "Did you even love me?" I blurt out before thinking about it. He stares at me for a few seconds before responding.

        "Ariel, of course I do, I mean did." He corrects himself. "You must have known that."

        "No. Now I'm not so sure. You don't hurt the ones you love. Especially repeatedly." I say looking down at my hands.

        "Please look at me." He says and stands up to walk over to me. I keep my eyes focused on my hands, and I see him kneel down next to me once again. I look down to him and see his eyes grow wider and his bottom lip tremble. This time he lets the tears spill over and I can't stop myself from wiping them off of his cheek with the pad of my thumb. His hand moves up and holds my hand there.

        Shit. And there it is. The inevitable that I some how knew would be hard to let go. The tingles from his touch travel all the way from my hand down to the pit of my stomach.

        Yes he was my first love. But do I still love him? How could I after everything he ever put me through? Why does my body still respond to him this way? I hate this. I can't feel this way.