My Forever (Harry Styles)

Rebel

"Harry, please look at me" I beg him.

He hasn't looked up from the metal table since he sat down. My cheeks start to heat and I know what's about to come. I can't help the tears that fall from my eyes. I let out an unwanted sob and sniffle and Harry's head immediately pops up. 

His eyes lock on mine. His eyes are filled with concern and sadness. Somehow I know that if his hands weren't behind his back, that he would be cradling my face right now to soothe me. 

"Oh Ariel, please don't cry..." he says to me in a low voice.

"What's happened to you?" My voice sounds choked.

"I'm so, so sorry. There's things you don't know, things I thought were gone. But something came up. I thought I could start over. Start new... with you." He tries to explain.

"What is it? What's going on, Harry?" I ask impatiently.

He squeezes his eyes shut in frustration. "I know I asked to see you. It's just, I needed you... to see you I mean. I can't explain this to you here. There's things I can't say here. I just need to get out of here so I can explain this to you the right way. In a more comfortable setting preferably." He says looking around at his surroundings. 

"So, what? You want me to pay your bail?" I ask him and look to the door, ready to get up and pay his bail right now.

"No! Ariel sit down please." I slowly sit back into my seat. " I won't take your money. Do not pay my bail. I can get someone else to do it." He says to me in a serious tone.

"But Harry I..." I start to say before he cuts me off.

"No Ariel! Just be here with me. Please." He asks me with pleading eyes.

"I was just with you last night. What happened?" 

"Two months Ariel. Two months of pure torture... I watched you run to Cameron for comfort! Do you have any idea how much that hurt me to watch?" He says to me.

It's true. The first few weeks Harry came over to our house, there were times where I was with Cameron cuddling on the couch. Those were times when Kaidyn let him push his way through the door. Other wise Cameron would answer and tell him to leave because I told him to. The other times I had Cam come pick me up from school, and I know Harry watched me run to his car because Harry would always try to talk to me after classes.

"I know. I'm sorry. I guess we both have some opening up and explaining to do." I say to him. "But you kept something obviously very big away from me. Some huge secret that everyone else seems to know about, except me! I told you all my secrets and things of my past." I say angrily.

"I thought that it went away! I thought this was just a part of my past and that it was staying there from now on! I swear I didn't know any of this would happen! I know I should have told you. But I'm afraid you'll run far away from me. And I've already gotten a taste of that. I don't want you running from me anymore." He says to me.

I have nothing to say to that. I'm honestly speechless. I feel bad for not saying anything, but what can I say? He's scaring me. What could be so bad that I would run from him? 

"I... I love you Harry. I don't want to run from you." I manage to come up with. And I mean it. 

He nods his head. "I love you more though. I never ran from you."

His words make my heart sink. They were cruel and unexpected. Not that I didn't deserve that. My tears start to spill over once again but I manage to suck them up.

"Harry... what can I do?"

"Just wait for me. Please." 

"Of course."