protect my heart

15

n a d i a

"You think they'll tell us what we're having?" Christian asked me as we walked hand-in-hand into the doctor's office.

I shrug, "I don't know. I want to do another reveal for this one. It would just be wrong of us to not do one when we did one for Wyatt and Willow.." I looked at him, "If that's okay with you..."

Christian nodded, "Whatever you wanna do, baby. I'm fine with anything." He said as he gave my hand a slight squeeze. "I just get super excited when we're able to know because like that just tells me that we're like getting closer to meeting them."

I smile at Christian, "I agree. I feel like I'm barely showing though. With our other two, I was showing a lot by now. I feel like I have a little bump, but it looks like I just ate a lot and I'm bloated," I giggle and put my other hand over my stomach, "Just crazy that there's a little human in there.."

We get all checked in and they place us in a room and have me lay on the table. I loved having Christian there with me for support; I always felt much better and more comfortable when he was with me. There have been times I've gone to doctor appointments alone and I just felt like I wasn't comfortable. I wanted my best friend there, it's his kid too.

The doctor walked in and smiled at us, "How are we doing today? It's so good to see you two again.." She said as she set down her laptop and charts, "Ready to see the baby today?"

I nodded, looking at her, "If it's possible, we want to find out the gender, but don't tell us. We're doing another reveal for this one too." I tell her and she nods, flashing a smile at me.

"I think we're at that point in your pregnancy to find out. You're barely showing! You were showing a lot with your last two at this point! Maybe this little one is just hiding out in there," she chuckles and puts the gel on my stomach and begins moving around the probe, "There they are.."

I look at the monitor, smiling. Christian is holding one of my hands, looking at the monitor as well. Before we know it, we can hear the heartbeat of our baby and I just tear up.

"They are very healthy and on the right track. Their heart sounds beautiful.." She told us and got the digital images. "Do you want a print of the ultrasound?"

Christian nodded quickly, "Yes please!" He replied and looked at me, "That's okay, right?"

I nodded, "That's perfect. How far along do I have to be to receive a 4D ultrasound?"I ask her as I had heard about them before, and I've always wanted one done with Wyatt and Willow, but could never get around to booking one.

"Usually around 22 weeks. You're about 18, going on 19, so in a couple of weeks is when you would be able to get a clear, excellent picture in a 4D ultrasound.." The doctor replied, "Would you want to do that for this one?"

"If it's possible! I never could do one for Wyatt or Willow because they were always booked and I never knew how far along I had to be." I told her, "I think it would be cute to see what they look like in my tummy," I smile at her.

She nodded, "We can definitely set one up at your next appointment in two weeks! I think that'll be amazing for you and Christian to see. It's definitely a beautiful thing." she replied, "I'm gonna go get your results and place them in an envelope and grab your photo from today."

Christian and I both nod before she walks out and I looked at him, "Would you wanna do that?"

"I think that sounds cool. We could see if they got more of your features or mine.." He told me, "I hope it's a boy...But I'm fine with a girl too, more girls to spoil." He shrugged and smiled at me, kissing my forehead and helped me sit up.

"I agree. I think another boy running around the house would be great for Wyatt. I'm sure he loves Willow and everything, but for terms of having someone that like understands what he's going through, I feel like having another boy around the house would be great. But, I also don't want to make Willow feel like she's left out. But I'm sure she's fine with either a little brother or a little sister," I laugh, "She's probably just excited to be a big sister.."

He nodded in agreement, "I think so too. She always asks me if I know what you're having and I tell her no because we're gonna find out with a party and then she gets sidetracked and gets excited because I mentioned party," Christian chuckled and shook his head, "She's something else."

I laugh, "She gets her goofiness from her daddy, that's for sure." I told him, kissing his cheek. The doctor came back in, handing us the picture from the ultrasound and an envelope with the results of the gender inside. I was so anxious to just tear it open and find out, but I wanted to do things the right way.

The two of us walk back to the car and I climbed in the passenger seat and looked over at Christian, "I love you."

He looked over at me, "I love you, babe." He leaned over and kissed me. "And I'm glad you're healthy and the baby is healthy." He kissed me again and then began to drive home. "That's all I wanted."

I grab one of his hands as he drove and rested our hands on the center console in the car. "I'm glad the baby is healthy, that's all I wanted to know. I always get nervous like something's going to happen and it's going to be beyond my control.." I tell him, "But I know I'm doing everything to take care of my body and the baby, so I shouldn't really stress that much.."

Christian glanced at me and nodded, "You have nothing to worry about, baby. You keep your body healthy and in shape and our baby is in good hands. You're a great mother, you shouldn't be nervous. We're past the risk period, we get to find out what we're having soon, Wyatt and Willow get to be big siblings, I think life is pretty good.."

"I agree. I don't know, it's just one of those thoughts that runs through my head. Like, what if the baby doesn't like something that I eat? I mean, I know I'll throw up because the baby won't like what I'm eating, but it's just one of those things.." I shrug, "I know I shouldn't worry, but I guess it's just a motherly instinct."

"And it's alright to be concerned! You want to make sure the baby that you're carrying is healthy, and that's all I want too! Things are going to be fine, I promise you that." He pressed his lips against my hand and I couldn't help but smile at him. I am so glad I have him in my life for moments like these; he always knew how to take the stress away with the simplest words.

Things are going to be fine.