protect my heart

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n a d i a

As much as I loved being pregnant, I was ready to not be pregnant. I wanted our little boy to be here already. Christian and I hadn't decided on a name yet, nor had we even began to discuss names. I didn't want to do another W name, however, I wanted it to be different. Plus, there's only so many W names and William is too close to Willow.

Christian had an off day so we were taking advantage of that and going out on the boat with a couple of his friends and their girlfriends/wives. I wasn't the most comfortable wearing a two piece bathing suit, but I also wanted to get some sun.

I rummaged through my closet, trying to find a bikini and settled on a black one. I changed into it and looked at myself in the mirror, laughing to myself.

Christian walked in and looked at me, "What's so funny?"

"My boobs don't even fit in my bikini top anymore." I laughed again and looked at my growing bump, "And I got a little human growing in me."

He shrugged, "So? I think you look beautiful. How is our little man doing?" Christian asked, putting one of his hands on my stomach. "Not causing momma any problems, right?"

"He's great, babe. He's not causing any trouble." I reply and look at him, "Whos all going on the boat?"

"Um. Jacob and his girlfriend, Adrian and his girlfriend, Lo and his wife, Brent and his wife, Hader and his wife. It's a no kids day." He says with a smile, "And Katie is coming to watch them, right?"

I nodded, "Yup. She's gonna keep them entertained and sit outside with them so they can swim for a little bit." I went back in my closet, grabbing a floral swimsuit cover up to go over my suit and grabbed my sunglasses. "I'm ready to go whenever you are."

Christian nodded. "I can finally get some sun!" He chuckles, "Gotta out-tan you." He kissed me, "God, I can't get over how beautiful you look! It's the glow, I swear."

I can't help but blush at his compliments. I would take them in whenever he would give them, but I still would blush like crazy.

"Oh stop it," I say, hitting his arm. "You're just saying that."

"I am telling the truth?" He opened the door and we walked to his car together. "You are so beautiful, babygirl. I am gonna tell you that whenever I get the chance." He opens the passenger door for me and I climb in, buckling myself in, which was starting to become a task as my bump grew bigger every day.

"Have you thought about any names for our baby?" I ask Christian, grabbing his hand. "I want to stray away from W. I was thinking maybe like Emerson or Nico.."

He glanced over at me and nodded, "I like those names, babe. I also like the name Jaxon. I think it's badass." Christian laughed, "But I like Nico too. I like that we kind of do things a little different with our kids; Straying away from the generic names."

I smile and nodded, "I like Jaxon too. I could see a little Jaxon running around the house." I tell him, kissing his hand.

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While on the boat, I mingled with the WAGs and Christian just hung out with the guys. He would come and occasionally check up on me, making sure I felt okay. I was feeling great, and getting some sun.

"So another boy, huh?" Adrian's girlfriend asked, "I bet Christian was over the moon."

"Oh, he was. Another boy to get into baseball, according to him. What if he wants to do soccer? Or wrestling? Or even be a cheerleader?" I laugh, "But yeah, he was very excited. My little girl Willow didn't really take the news well at first, but she got over it. I know she wanted a little sister."

Lorenzo's wife nodded, "I mean, I got three kids, and they were all pretty mixed about each other." She chuckled, "I love your kiddos! Wyatt is a very polite little man and Willow is so cute! She definitely looks like you."

I smiled, "Thank you. Wyatt looks so much like Christian, it blows my mind. We were looking at his baby pictures and we just couldn't believe how much he looked like C when he was younger. I am not complaining, though. I made some cute kids." I act as though I was throwing my hair over my shoulder and laughed.

Christian walked over and kissed my cheek, "Hi baby momma. How's it going?"

"It's going great. We're just talking about kids." I smile at him, "What are you doing? I told you that you could drink a little if you wanted, you don't have to carry around a bottle of water," I tell him, noticing he was still carrying around a bottle of water.

"I am fine, babe! I don't need alcohol to have fun. I gotta stay sober and make sure you're alright." He says, running his fingers through my hair.

"I'm fine, baby. I'll let you know if I don't feel well." I puckered my lips and he kissed me before walking back by the guys.

"He cares a lot about you, huh?" Josh's wife asked me and I just smiled.

I laugh, "He was like this with Wyatt and Willow too." I shrug, "I don't mind it, I think it's kind of cute."

"I love how much he loves you. It's super cute." One of them says with a smile. "Even when you aren't around, he's talking about you." 

I look back at Christian who's laughing with his team-mates and looks to be having a good time. That's all I wanted for him; I knew how stressed he's been lately and this day off was definitely needed for him to just relax and not focus on anything work related. I think we both needed the day off, honestly.

When we got home, Wyatt was fast asleep on the couch while Willow sat up, watching a Disney movie with their nanny, Katie. I thanked Katie and let her leave before Christian picked up Wyatt and moved him to his bedroom, laying him down.

"Willow, are you hungry?" I ask her, looking in the fridge and freezer for something quick to make. "Want some mac and cheese or something?" 

Willow nodded, "Yes please, momma. Can I have a hot dog, too?" 

"Do you want it in the mac and cheese? Or separate?"

"Not in the mac and cheese. Is Wyatt going to eat too?" Willow asked me, climbing up on the chair that sat at the island in our kitchen. 

I shrug, "I dunno, bug! I think he's going to nap for a little while. But that's okay! You, me and daddy can enjoy a nice little dinner and I'll make him something if he wakes up from his nap later."

She nodded, "Do the baby eat when you eat too, momma?"

I laughed and nodded, "Yeah! They don't get the mac and cheese that I eat, though! They get all the vitamins and stuff so when they're born, they're nice and healthy! Kind of cool, huh?"

"Baby have name?" She asked me, taking a drink from her sippy cup.

"We haven't decided on one yet, princess. Daddy and I are still thinking. But as soon as we know, we're going to tell you and Wyatt together!" I fix her hair and kiss her forehead, "I love you so much."

"I love you, momma! This big!" She stretched her arms out as far as she could.

I smiled at her, "No way! That's a lot! I love you...This big!" I stretched my arms out and she giggled, standing up on the chair and gave me a hug. "Oh, I love my Willow hugs." I say, hugging her back and gave her  a kiss on the head. I'll never understand how I got so lucky and blessed with the most amazing children.