protect my heart

25

n a d i a

I was unable to get a good night's sleep due to me having contractions. I knew that Jaxson was due any moment now and frankly, I couldn't wait for that to happen. I didn't want to wake Christian up unless I knew we had to go to the hospital; We've been through this twice already, I think I had a good idea on when I really needed to get to the hospital for the baby. But, you never know.

I walked in circles around the house, trying to subside some of the discomfort from the contractions, but nothing seemed to help. It was only around five in the morning, so the last thing I wanted to do was wake Christian up when I knew he had to go to practice later on. I walked back into the bedroom, sitting in bed and put my hand on my stomach. I just wanted to sleep, that's all...

Christian stirred awake and rubbed his eyes before looking at me, "Why are you up? You okay?" He asked me, sitting up. "Do we have to go?"

I shook my head, "No. Just starting to get contractions, so I haven't been able to sleep.." I reply, taking a deep breath. "I'll let you know when it's time to go. I want you to sleep.."

"Babe, if you're uncomfortable, I'm not going to sleep and just let you suffer. That's not fair to you.." Christian said, moving to get up. "Want some water or something?" He asked and I just nodded before he walked out of the bedroom to grab me some water. He came back a couple of minutes later, handing me a bottled water, "Here you go.."

"Thank you.." I say quietly, taking the water and opened it up to take a sip. "I just feel icky right now. And tired.." I tell him and laid my head on his shoulder. "I can feel him kicking too like he's trying to tell me that he's ready to come today."

Christian kissed my head, placing his hand on my stomach and started rubbing gently. "I'm sorry you feel icky, Nads. I can't even imagine what you feel like right now. But, it must be a little exciting to know that he's possibly going to be coming soon, right?"

I nodded, "Yeah. I just hate the whole process before and during. That's when I just wish I could get him out myself instead of waiting and whatnot." I explain to him, "But, I am getting excited to finally meet him. Wyatt's going to be super happy to meet his little brother. He hasn't stopped talking about it lately."

"I am excited to meet his little brother too," Christian chuckled, "I think he's going to be an amazing big brother. I am just excited to have another baby."

I smile at him, "Me too." I wince, feeling another contraction coming. "I am ready for these contractions to be over and done with. This is only the beginning..." I sigh, just moving to try and make myself comfortable.

"Well, whenever you need to go, you let me know and I'll get your sister on the phone to get the kiddos." Christian told me, rubbing my stomach gently.

I just nod and close my eyes, hoping to get a little bit of sleep, but it doesn't seem likely.

****
A couple of hours pass and it was definitely time to go.

I tap Christian's shoulder, "Babe...We gotta go..."

Christian woke up pretty quick and got out of bed. "Alright, you just sit there. I'll get a hold of your sister, get the kids up and get the bag."

I hold my stomach, trying to sit up comfortably as the contractions were really coming through. I wanted to help Christian with everything but I knew he was just going to make me sit down if I even attempted to try and help.

Christian came back in with the hospital bag and held his hands out for me to get up. "Ready to go? Your sister is literally two minutes away." He tells me as we walk into the living room. "Do you need to sit?"

I shook my head, "I'm fine, baby. It subsides a little if I'm standing up anyways." I told him and looked at the door as my sister came in pretty quick.

"Hey, I got them. You guys go, good luck." My sister said before giving me a hug, "You're going to do great. I can't wait to meet him."

I smile small before walking out the door with Christian and we made our way to the hospital. This was really happening.

When we got to the hospital, I was quickly admitted into a room and my water hadn't broke yet so they were waiting to see if it was going to on its own or if I needed to have my water broke. It really was starting to get uncomfortable in terms of sitting down so I decided just to lay down, slightly sitting up. Christian was constantly checking on me to make sure I was okay; He always got so nervous when it came to things like this. I really did appreciate it, though.

"You want to maybe walk around a little bit? You said standing kind of subsides the pain..." Christian asked me.

I nod and sit myself up before grabbing Christian's hands and stood up. "This is always the worst part.." I tell him, still holding his hands as he walked backwards and walked around the room with me. "The waiting and the process of giving birth is what sucks. I just hope he's okay."

Christian listened to me y'all and nodded, "Yeah, I cant even imagine how you're feeling right now. Like your body must be feeling so many different things."

"It definitely is a weird feeling, especially once I know that I'm starting contractions and when I start the whole labor process." I told him, looking at him, "Like a whole little human is making his way to this world, but causing me discomfort," I chuckle.

Hours went by and my water still hadn't broke so the doctors decided to go ahead and break my water to speed up the birthing process. I was pretty dilated already and I was ready to just get this baby out. Christian sat next to me, holding my hand and made sure I was okay. 

"You getting anxious?" He asked me, kissing my hand. 

I nodded, "I just want him out..." I say, leaning my head back against the pillow. "I'm just irritated at this point.." 

***

Finally. Jaxson was here. It was ten hours of labor but I am so glad he is finally here. A healthy seven pounds, six ounces and the most beautiful baby boy ever. 

Christian held Jaxson in the chair next to me as I rested. I was just in awe at how beautiful Jaxson was. He was healthy, and that's all I wanted. Christian was in love with him, and I couldn't wait to see how the other two would react to finally meeting their baby brother.