Waiting | Ateez Seonghwa x reader

7 ~ Notice

You slammed your apartment door closed. You had just got back from yunho's place and you luckily didn't have any classes today. So you kicked off your boots and you walked to your room.

You threw the jacket onto your chair while you sighed, you had no idea how you were supposed to give hongjoong his jacket back since you had no way of contacting him, but that was a problem for another day.

You grabbed some comfy clothes from your drawers and you went into the bathroom. You showered and quickly got dressed not bothering to dry your hair, you simply rubbed a towel over it a couple of times too lazy to get the hair drier.

You then sat on your bed and finally you checked your phone, you saw some messages from seonghwa. Yunho had already told him you were at his place so he simply said 'goodnight' you smiled at the text and then you saw some missed calls

Mom and dad

You frowned while looking at the missed calls, you and your parents had grown very distant since high school. Sometimes you blamed yourself but you also knew it was partly their fault.

You gently slid your finger against your phone screen while you brought it up to your ear, after a couple of rings you heard an answer

"hello, y/n" your mothers soft voice rang though while you looked down at the ground

"yeah, why did you and dad call last night" you asked and your mother paused, then your heard her voice

"we are sorry, about...about being so blind" she said softly while your heart constricted

"after your call last night, we understand how upset you were" she continued while your eyes watered suddenly remembering what had happened last night in your drunken state

You were placed in the back seat of yunho's car and he looked at you "alright stay here, I'm going to find san then we can go home" he said softly. Then he locked his car door while you watched from the window as he raced off

You had let out so many emotions you kept bottled up that in the end you had wanted to confront seonghwa, you scrolled through your contacts looking for his name but instead two other names caught your eye

dad

mom

You blamed it on the alcohol but finally you pressed the call and soon the phone rang

"y/n is that you" your dad voiced through the phone, it was weird calling your parents after two years. You hadn't talked to them since you left for college two years ago, but the alcohol wouldn't let you shut up

"you never called..." you trailed off as suddenly tears welled up in your eyes, the emotions you kept at bay resurfacing

"you never asked why I looked so sad, why I was crying in my room sometimes. You heard, you saw, but you acted so blind..." then you saw yunho rushing towards the car carrying a drunk san. Suddenly your sober thoughts came in

"never mind this was stupid" you hung up the phone and watched as san crawled inside the car and you slurred out "home...I want to go home"

You sat quietly while you mother spoke "we...we are really sorry y/n, we thought maybe you needed some space like it was normal for-"

You heard the front door close "hey I should go seonghwas back...maybe, we could talk later" you said softly and you felt tears stream down your face, you were glad she called.

"yes...I would really like that" your mother replied while you hung up after hearing the soft sniffles on the other line. She was crying

"are you home y/n" seonghwas voice rang through from the living room. "I'm in my room" you screamed back and you wiped your tears away.

You then watched as your door was flung open and seonghwas smiled faded as he looked at you. He rushed over to your side and he gently held you in his arms as he sat next to you on your bed, you could tell he knew you had been crying from your red eyes.

"it's okay, I'm here" he mumbled out, you remembered those words so clearly

You remembered the reason why you and your parents drifted in high school

You were happy, well until it happened.

Just like normal a girl from your school stood in front of seonghwa confessing to him while you stood off to the side. It was your last year of high school and you never would had guessed that one of the most popular girls at school wanted to date your best friend.

But you understood, seonghwa was the whole package. He was kind, he was smart, he was a good listener, his laugh was melodic, and his smile could warm anyone's heart.

Yes, you had fallen in love with seonghwa a couples moths ago. You had no idea how it happened, one day you just suddenly realized that you had feelings for him but you never confessed. Instead you stood like normal as another girl confessed to him...you just waited like always.

However, you never knew that when seonghwa denied her and he ran back over to you that this girl was different than most. She glared as he wrapped his arm around your shoulder as you two walked home together

Then the days came, you were ridiculed by her stupid little group. You were pushed around, tripped, anything to make your life miserable.

You had come home in thicker layers everyday to cover the bruises from falling over, or more like being tripped and pushed. Then some nights you cried, but you never heard your parents say anything, you just...you just wanted someone to reach out.

"watch where you are going" the girl cackled as she pushed you to the walls and you groaned in pain, then like a rope being pulled tight and suddenly being snapped you lashed out

"just because seonghwa didn't accept your confession, is that why you are always bothering me" you spat out while the girls eyes glared at you then her friends eyes widened when she punched you in the face

"that's enough" one of her friends said while pulling the girl away

You simply heard the once frustrated and angry girl sniffling as she sobbed "I'm never enough" you had known then that this girl clearly had other problems but it still didn't give her the right to just hurt you

You wobbled up and walked home. You feet scuffed the ground as you pulled your hood up more trying to cover your bruised cheek from the punch, but as you arrived at your front door you saw seonghwa sitting outside on the steps

You had been avoiding him knowing he would catch onto your plummeting mood quickly but he stood up once he saw you

"alright, enough avoiding me. Did I do something wrong" he said softly while you saw his slightly red face from the cold winds. He was waiting for you

You looked up at him and he dropped his back pack and ran over to you gently cupping your face with wide eyes

"WHAT HAPPENED" he screamed out while your eyes watered, finally someone was looking at you, noticing. You blamed yourself too though, for never asking for help but you felt so trapped.

"it's okay, I'm here. I won't let anyone hurt you y/n" seonghwa said softly seeing your teary eyes, then you just hugged him tightly crying into his shoulder. After that day he never left your side until high school ended and that girl had transferred, but not before her friends had gave you a note saying she was sorry.

You never could truly forgive her for what she did, but you remembered her words 'I'm never enough' and you knew she was going through some things, so even if you couldn't forgive her you still hoped she could be happy in the future. 

You looked up at seonghwa, smiling softly "yeah, you're here" you said while hugging him