Waiting | Ateez Seonghwa x reader

22 ~ Hurt

Your heart was beating rapidly while you paused and all you could do was look up at hongjoong as you waited for him to smile, laugh, or anything to indicate he wasn't serious. However, hongjoong just waited for you to answer

"very funny hongjoong" you said knowing he had to be joking but hongjoong simply sighed "I'm not kidding. Why are you still here, seriously y/n" he asked while you found yourself not able to look him in the eyes any longer because...you didn't have an explanation.

"you're hurting yourself by staying here like this. Why are you so set on waiting for someone who is with someone else, can't you see it's hurting you" hongjoong sounded angry as he spoke and you found that again you had no explanation.

You knew you stayed by seonghwa to make sure he was happy, but why. Why did you have to sacrifice your own happiness in order to stay by his side...then it hit you all at once. 

You were so tired.

"I'm so tired of waiting for him, each second that passes it feels like my heart is being ripped apart" you said while your voice cracked and your eyes got teary. You meant every word, you were truly just tired of waiting for seonghwa to return your feelings and you didn't think your heart could handle anymore

You knew you were just hurting yourself at this point and you knew hongjoong was right. You just needed some time away from seonghwa, maybe then the pain in your heart would fade away

"you know you deserve so much better than seonghwa" hongjoong spoke out while you found yourself looking at him in surprise. Hongjoong simply laughed seeing your expression "why do you look shocked by what I said. I mean it"

Hongjoong smiled softly while he continued "it's kind of weird saying this considering we've only known each other for like a week but you really deserve better. You are way too nice, sometimes even for your own good. You're hurting yourself by putting his happiness before yours. You deserve better than that. You deserve to be happy y/n"

Tears fell down your face as as hongjoongs words hit your heart directly. You were tired of everything, you were tired of putting your own happiness on the sidelines while you suffered. 

"you deserve someone who would never make you put your happiness to the side, you deserve someone who notices how you wait for them so patiently, so wholeheartedly. I don't want to see you crying anymore, I don't want to see you being hurt anymore" hongjoong stared at you with such a genuine concerned expression and you felt your heart twist in pain

You...you didn't want to hurt anymore either.

So you found yourself saying the next words as you wiped away your tears "so we run" you asked while the hurt expression on hongjoong face seemed to lift away as a soft smile formed "yeah, we can. If we go back early you will have a few days alone with no seonghwa".

You paused as you felt yourself take in a deep breath, and for once you decided to put your happiness first. For once you decided to stop hurting "alright, then lets run"

Hongjoongs eyes widened not expecting the response you gave but soon a smiled formed on his face as he seemed to process your words "alright" he took out his phone and his fingers moved across the screen as he most likely sent a message that you two were leaving.

Then hongjoong shoved his phone back into his pocket and he held out his hand to you "I told them to bring our stuff back later, so we can just go now. If you're ready"

You wiped away the few remaining tears as you gently placed your hand in his and you smiled up at him "I'm ready" you said softly and you both walked away from the sandy beach.

Seonghwa smiled as he walked into the cabin and he was surprised when he saw yunho laying on the living room floor as he seemed to be painting 

"what are you doing yunho" seonghwa asked in confusion seeing the male painting away. 

"I'm making art, clearly" yunho stated back and seonghwa furrowed his eyebrows trying to understand exactly what yunho was painting. But soon his attention was taken away from yunhos awful painting when he heard the front cabin door open. Seonghwa was excited to tell y/n about the movie he had just seen

He smiled softly expecting to see y/n walk inside with hongjoong since he had seen them earlier outside but he found himself frowning when he saw wooyoung, yeosang, and san.

"it's freezing outside" san complained while the three walked in with shopping bags full of stuff. Then the door opened again and seonghwas heart fluttered as he waited for his best friend to walk through the door, but y/n never came

As time passed the living room was loud and full of life as people talked but for some reason seonghwa kept staring at the door.

He kept wondering why she wasn't coming inside. Why was she with...why was she with hongjoong for so long

Seonghwas heart seemed to constrict as he thought about y/n and hongjoong standing outside as they admired the night sky but his thoughts were soon interrupted by a loud yell from yunho. 

"WHAT" yunhos screamed as he sat up from the floor completely forgetting his unfinished painting. 

"what is it yunho" san asked while yunhos eyes were wide as he spoke aloud "I didn't check my messages until now but I got a text from hongjoong. He told me to bring his and y/n's stuff back with me since he and y/n...are going back to the city" 

Everyone was shocked by the sudden announcement but seonghwa was the most surprised. He found his mind swirling with thoughts...he thought maybe y/n was sick or hongjoong was sick, but another thought lingered in his mind that he didn't even want to think about. However,  it seemed like he didn't have a choice because yunho said it out loud 

"I think hongjoong and y/n are dating"

Seonghwa felt his heart hurt as he heard the words.