YouTube Presents... (A Kyle David Hall fanfic)

Chapter 14

Hey guys, sorry I won't be updating for about another couple of days. Being Christmas and all, I have family coming to visit, therefore I won't have much time to write and publish, so sorry for lack of updates for the next few days.

Amanda's POV

After me and Kyle got sleepy we said goodnight and went to bed. Our whole night wasn't spent eating each other's faces off (surprisingly enough), we sat down and continued our game of 20 questions and then we just cuddled for a bit.

It's gonna be a long day cramped on the bus today, we have to drive for a full 12 hours before reaching our next destination for Warped. We're all discussing what we want to do when we stop for a couple of hours.

"How about we go to the beach?" Everyone agreed and I felt like dying at that moment. I feel like stabbing Bryan in the neck after he offered that.

"Uh, are you guys all cool with me staying here? I just, don't really like the beach."

"Aww c'mon, it'll be fun, I'm sure you'll enjoy it, please?" I looked over at Johnnie and tried to get him to shut up but he didn't.
"I will pick you up and drag you there if I have to." I began to laugh. "Bryan, I highly doubt that, even Johnnies probably stronger then you. But fine, I'll go with you guys if I have to." I feel like I just fucked myself over for live.

It's hard to fight these guys when they know what they want. At least Kyle didn't pick a side, that would've made me really peeved.

~a few hours later~ ((A/N: every time you read that, read it in that annoying time lapse voice from Spongebob xD.))

I grabbed my bikini and we all headed down to the beach. I really wasn't looking forward to this.
Kyle took me to the dressing rooms and tried to talk me into coming out.
"I'm sure you look fine, there's nothing to worry about."
I sighed. "I'm not worried about what people will think of my body, I just don't like the beach." I half lied.
"Please?"

I opened the door slightly and dragged Kyle in. "Please don't make me go out there looking like this.."
I could see him examining my legs and waist. "Oh." Was all he could say. I began picking at one of the bigger cuts on my upper thigh, the most recent ones were there from about a month ago.

"Don't pick at it." He grabbed my hand away and pulled me into a hug and we just stayed like that for a few minutes. "I'm sorry Amanda, just get dressed and we'll go back to the bus if you'd like."
"No, I don't wanna make you leave because of me." I know how guilty I'd feel if I made Kyle leave because of me.
"I don't want you coming out of this dressing room if your not comfortable with it, okay?" He pecked me on the lips and walked out.

I really didn't want to go out there looking like this, not just because of the guys, I'm not all too worried about them, I know they'll understand, I hope. It's just, there are other people who I know will judge me. What if people recognise me from YouTube? What if people take and post pictures? What if I'm openly called out on it? What if people laugh? I take a deep breath and walk out without getting changed. There's no way I'm going to make everyone leave because I'm insecure about this. I'll hate myself if I don't go out. But I'll probably end out hating myself even if I do.

"Hey, are you sure you wanna go out there." I shake my head and grab his hand and we begin walking.