My Forgotten Love

Rooting for her

Steve's pov

It's been six years, A very long time had passed already but unlike before she didn't felt something towards me. I didn't even know what I did for her to treat me like that, to hate me...

I decided to skipped work and contact my friends. I called Sam first, after a few rings he answered.

"Hey man, what's up? Why'd you called?" He asked through the other line.

"Sam..."

"Oh no this isn't sound good. Let me call others and we'll all meet. Same place, see you in twenty."

"Thanks." I murmured and hang up.

I told my secretary to cancel everything just for today and reschedule them tomorrow. I need some advice from my friends.

***

"Hey Rogers!" Thor greeted, waving his right hand. I walked towards their direction and that's when they knew what seems to be wrong. I took a sit on the barstool and sighed problematically.

Tony handed me a drink which I gladly accepted, "It's red isn't it?"

I didn't respond at his question, instead I drank the glass of scotch and let my tears fall. "I don't know how much I can take this anymore! I cannot pretend like it doesn't hurt anymore! I can't take this pain anymore..." I sobbed through every line.

Bucky tapped my back and kept quiet.

"Maybe it's time Steve. Maybe you need to let her go, you've been doing this for almost five years! It's like you're punishing yourself for something you did and you know you shouldn't. What happened isn't your fault." Sam deliberated.

As much as I hated to admit but he has a point... I need to be strong but how can I let her go? Even if I want to I just can't...

"Even the girls are starting to accept the fact that Natasha won't get her memories back, We just can't bring her back." Tony added.

I sighed not knowing to do, "I'm not the only one rooting for her to come back Tony you know that..." I whimpered.

"We are all aware of it Steve, trust me we do."

"She has the right to know." I stated with a lace of guilt in my voice.

Thor realized what I'm saying and he immediately objected. "You can't do it. I know what you're thinking and you just can't. We've talked about this Steven!"

"But we can't keep it forever! I know it'll blow her mind but at some point we need to do this! We need to tell her!" I roared. I slid my hand in my pocket to get my phone and dialed Natasha immediately.

"What are you doing?!" Tony yelled and snatched my phone.

"Give the damn phone back!"

Tony turned my phone off and faced me with a mad face, like a dog who's ready to bark and bite. "No! Don't be selfish Steve! You know that the truth will mess her up! You can't just go and tell her 'Oh Natasha we've been together before and that ring you're still wearing is my promise ring.' Snap it out! If you really love her? You won't do this." He argued and throw my phone on me.

I didn't know what to say anymore so I walked out and called the only person who I know will understand me the best. Kara.

Natasha's pov

"Natasha I've heard what happened. We really need to talk about it." Maria implied.

I took a glance on her and focused my attention on the computer again. "It's nothing."

"Why are you treating Steve like shit Nat? Like seriously he didn't do anything wrong to you." Maria said as she sat on the couch near my table.

"I don't have time for this Maria. I have a lot of things to do today." I scoffed, rolling my eyes.

"You're hurting him. I don't know if you're blind enough to not see how much he cares for you. You've been a total bitch to him. I hope you know that human's get tired too, and as I can see? Steve is getting tired already." She snapped and left me hanging.

I was taken a back at what she just said. Am I really hurting him? But why would he get hurt? We don't have relationship of any sort! Damn we're not even friends!

But as I reminisce how his face got sad earlier this morning I really felt bad. Something is definitely wrong and I just can't get it off my mind. There must be an explanation why these feelings are so strange. I need to find out what it is.