Losing Control

Chapter 4: And...Scene

Previously....

For the first time in more than 10 years...Jason left me and never looked back.

Felix

It hurt. So bad. So damn bad. He was my only friend and I knew eventually a day like this would come but I didn't know it would come so soon.

A thousand knives flew towards me stabbing me. It was the wind as he slammed the door.

This was the worse pain because it was emotional and uncontrollable.  I fought back the tears on the brim of my eyes. I can't be weak in a moment like this.

Jason is growing i need to grow as well. I took a deep breath before pacing back and forth in my empty room.

"Felix?" My mums voice broke the silence in my bedroom.

I turned to her and immediately forced all tears to receed. It'll be bad for me to cry. She always said how men had to be strong and control their feelings. I smiled at her as she questioned about jason.

"Why did jason leave in such a hurry?" She asked.

"Umm...his dad." Thats all I replied and it seemed to be enough for her.

"Ok well, there's still some cookies downstairs if you want some."  She said. It felt like she knew that I was feeling kind of down. So she must've known how even  hard i was trying to hold it in and decided to ignore it.

"Ok. Thanks." I said before she exited the room giving me some privacy.

Only then did i really come to the realisation of how lonely I was. The room seemed so empty without his presence. Like something was missing.

Well i guess that made sense. He took up half the room anyways. I laid on my bed praying and hoping that he'll walk through the door. I opened the window. Wide open. Praying and hoping he'll either throw some rocks or climb through. Praying and hoping doesn't work. It's a fraud.

I didnt know when but i eventually fell into a deep slumber. Praying and hoping i wouldn't wake up.

.....

The sun shone from the huge gap in the windows. A cold chill crept up into the room from the open window and i quickly got up to close it. I was shivering and mentally scolded my self. That was kind of stupid of me leaving the window open like that.

Just then an idea struck me. I took out my phone and located the most recently added number. Jason is turning 16 soon, he needed to be friends with people more like him, and not like me. Maybe it's a good thing that were on bad terms.

FELIX: Hey

MAX: Hi,you asked your mum yet?

FELIX: yup. You still up for it?

MAX: Ofcourse, see you then cupcake😍

FELIX: okie 🤣🤣

A little laugh left my mouth. Cupcake huh?

My mood was instantly lifted. Today was the last day of the week And it just so turns out i didn't have any lessons with Jason. Guess today will be quite boring i thought to myself before heading into the bathroom getting ready for the day.

...

The school day was over. And just as I predicted absolutely nothing happened. Jason didn't try to talk to me. I don't even think he looked at me.

Maybe he knew the truth about what happened and he didn't want to be near me anymore. Or maybe i was overthinking everything. i do that a lot.

I was okay with that. But what hurt me a but was that he hung out with the popular kids. Those who sometimes picked on me. It hurt to see him with them i couldn't help but notice how much he fit in. it made me almost think thet he was Just like them.

He's not. He's not. I repeated as i walked home. The entire day i tried not the think about him but i guess i just couldn't help myself.

He was unforgettable.

He was always on my mind. Was i ever on his?

My steps slowed down and rain began pouring from the sky.

"Shit." I cursed at myself as i began walking faster than before.

Its been months from the last time i walked home and that was only because jason was being forced into a meeting with his dad.

It was quite a long journey however not impossible. I searched my surroundings and thought about a shortcut. The sides Of my brain argued with each whether i should go down the dark alley way or not.

The intelligent side said no it's the perfect murder scene in there. Yet the 'wanna go home' side said the perfect muder scene will only last a few seconds,what are the chances? 

It didn't take much deliberation before i made my decision and i diverted my direction towards the alley way. I wanted to quickly run through here but by the time i got halfway. It was apparant that someone else was here.

In fact there was quite the scene. The alleyway branched off into another and i stood hiding behind the wall at the intersection watching the scene play out. The people looked sketchy so i made sure not to be seen.

"I..i said i would pay next month. Please jus give me a little more time." A bloodied man said before bringing up his forearm to wipe blood off his face as he scooted towards the wall of the alleyway leaning back to support himself. He semed to have a wound on his leg. A knife wound.

I stared eyes wide. Ive never seen something like this and a crippling fear grabbed my heart. I noticed that any sound i made could've costed me my life. I stood motionless watching them.  waiting for it to just end so i can run past. I made sure to take deep breaths. This would be the worse place to pass out.

"We've come to the conclusion that you are unable to pay us back. W ok though we know your daughter is doing quite well. Your debt would he redirected to her." The man in a het black suit said with a devilish smile decorating his face. 

He was accompanied with two other men wearing the same attire.

They looked threatening and scary. My heart was almost beating out of my chest. I was scared they may be able to hear it.

Please please please.  I repeated over and over in my head.

I don't know what I was begging for. Maybe for this to go away and be a dream. Nightmare more like.

The injured man on the ground frantically began shaking his head

"n..no no n-" he said before he was cut off.

There was barely a sound but i heard it. A shot. The gun probably had an Silencer but it still made sound. It was so quiet like a mouse in a crowd of cats. Like me.

I was one hundred percent sure that they killed the man. And began walking away from me down the alley. Only then I Realized a black car at the end of the alley way just waiting for them.

It seemed recognizable . So i leaned out of my hiding spot and stared at the driver seat and saw someones face plastered on the window staring right back at me. My heart stopped completely as i collaspsed to the ground once the suited men were far enough.  Jason?