Searching the Stars (Montereal Series #1)

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I sat by the hut near the sea, feeling the sea breeze. I didn't even cry. I just knew that my mind is too pre-occupied by everything I heard. Everything is so confusing.

Hinawi ko ang mahaba kong buhok at tumingin sa taas.

"When can I truly be happy? Gusto ko lang naman maging masaya..." I whispered as I stared at the stars.

Pakiramdam ko ay naiyak ko na lahat nang kailangan iiyak. My mom probably thinks I'm a monster. A disrespectful child. She doesn't understand what I feel. I was hurt. I was hurt by everything that my Dad did. Even if that was his plan, the fact still remains that he left me with all his problems. He ruined my mental health. My peace of mind.

I heard someone approaching, I turned to the sound to see Trent slowly approaching me.

"Do you need someone to talk to?" he asked.

I gave a small smile and lightly nodded. He sat beside me.

"Do you need a hug?"

I looked at him. My tears started welling up in my eyes.

"Yes..." my voice broke.

He wrapped his arm around me, making me lean to his chest. I cried at his chest, releasing all the anger and frustration I felt. He rubbed my back, trying to calm me down.

"My mom doesn't understand... she doesn't understand the anger I felt." I said.

He didn't speak. He just continued rubbing my back, listening to the words I say.

"She doesn't know how much I suffered. She doesn't know anything." I muttered. "I'm angry. I'm still angry at him. I'm angry at him for leaving me. For letting me feel all that! All for what? Money? Tapos ngayon, babalik siya sa akin para sa pera? Bullshit!"

"Do you want to throw rocks?" he suddenly asked.

Napa-angat ako ng tingin sa kanya. Why is he suddenly asking me this?

"It helps you release your anger and frustrations? Do you want to throw rocks at the sea?"

Umaawang ang labi ko saglit bago tumango. Maybe it could help me release the anger I feel.

Tumayo kami sa kinauupuan namin at lumapit sa may dagat. Rinig na rinig ang tunog ng mga alon.

I grabbed a rock from the ground and aggresively throw it to the sea. I released all my anger to the rocks I've been throwing. Trent was just watching me, maintaining a distance.

I kept throwing rocks until I was tired. That felt good. It lessened my anger and calmed me.

"Are you good now?"

"Yes." I replied.

Tumayo ako sa pagkakaupo sa buhanginan at pinagpag ang buhangin sa katawan ko. We both walked back to the hut to chill for awhile.

"What are you going to do now?" he asked.

"I think I have to talk to my grandparent's lawyer. I'm sure, Jasper knows. I have to talk to him too."

He nodded slowly. "What about your dad?"

I looked at him and raised a brow. "What about him?"

"I don't think he told you all that just to ask money from you. He seemed like he really regretted everything he did,"

I scoffed. "If he had a plan like that, then he should've at least told me. It would've been less painful then."

The sea breeze felt more relaxing as we continue sitting here.