it's always you

Chapter 4

It's been a month, at hanggang ngayon ay hindi parin nagpapakita sa amin si dom. After that incident he never showed up that's why our friends was asking me of what happened. Sinabi ko sa kanila and I told them even my feelings for him, pinilit nilang intindihin pero hindi nila ako tinolerate dahil alam nilang mali, even the girls who knows it from the beginning got mad at me but we're ok now.

Simula noon wala ng bumabanggit ng pangalan ni dom, they want me to move on from all of what happened, Carmela and Milan are still mad at dom because he choose to distant his self from us, pero nagkikita kita padin naman sila ng boys.

"Hey are you done?". Napabalik na lamang ako sa wisyo ng tanungin ako ni carm.

"Yeah, but can we drop for a sec at the Community Park?" we're now going back to manila 'cause our parents already prepared our resumes for us to start working already.

"Are you still hoping that he'll show up? Isn't it obvious? He already choose that ginataang hipon over us! Don't waste your time for that jerk sol!" pag-pigil sa akin ni milan.

Yes, I'm hoping that he'll show up for the last time, and I don't think that he'll come back to manila 'cause klaire doesn't want to be far from him. Kahit saglit lang dom, I just want to say goodbye. But as what we expected he never showed up, Siguro hanggang dito na nga lang, even our friendship will gonna end here right now.

Thankyou for being there when I need you, Thankyou for protecting me everytime, Thankyou my brother, my love and my only sun. Salamat sa pagmamahal na ibinigay mo sa akin kahit bilang kaibigan lang, hindi ko inaasahan na sa ganito mawawala ang lahat na sa ganito pala maiwawala kita na parang isang iglap lang, Kung alam ko lang, Kung alam ko lang sana nanatili na lang akong tahimik at hindi na sana binunyag pa yung nararamdaman ko para sayo.

Sobra yung pagsisisi ko ngayon dahil tuluyan ng lumayo sa akin ang nagiisa isang taong minahal ko buong buhay ko, yung taong kasama sa lahat ng plano ko sa buhay, kung alam ko lang sana tiniis ko nalang na mahalin ka ng patago at masaktan ng patago sana kinaya ko nalang. Then I already felt my tears running on my face.

"Hey you're crying nanaman, stop na please? I don't want you to be like that because of dom, cheer up bitch! Make him realize what he lost! He lost us! He lost you, his bff since when you're fetus." Pagpapagaan ng loob ni carm sa akin

"Yeah girl, carm is right! He's our friend but I'll kill him talaga if I saw him! grabe ganon lang kadali para sa kanya na ibasura lang ang pagkakaibigan natin? Ano ba nakita niya don sa ginataang hipon na 'yon?!" sabi naman ni milan.

Nakatulog nalang ako kakaiyak at pag gising ko malapit na pala kami sa condo, magkakasama padin kami sa condo, we decided to get a condo nalang kasi ayaw din naman naming mag stay sa mga bahay bahay namin buti nalang pumayag parents namin kasi ilang buwan nalang naman may kanya kanya na kaming trabaho.

My parents pass my resume at the cruise where my dad works, si carm naman ay doon magtatrabaho sa sikat na hotel sa New Jersey while milan will work for AirAsia, Ice and Kyle will put up a restaurant they decided to be partners while kalvin will work on a cruise too but we're not together.

"Order nalang ba tayo or magluluto or gusto nyo kain nalang tayo sa labas?" tanong ko sa dalawa na bigay na bigay ang higa sa sahig dahil kakatapos lang namin mag set-up ng kanya kanyang kwarto dito sa condo at sobra na yung pagod namin.

"Mag food panda nalang tayo grabe wala na akong lakas para lumabas pa." matamlay na sagot ni carm.

We're watching Netflix now while eating, napapasulyap ako kay milan dahil sa reaksyon niya sa pinapanuod namin, grabe ka tinde yung mga scene like omyghad can you even finish 365 dni by just yourself? T*ng*na ang swerte naman ni laura!!!

"grabe sana ako nalang si laura! Gusto ko din gawin sakin ni Massimo yon!!!". Grabe sobrang libog talaga nitong si milan! Basta pag mga ganito pinapanuod namin buhay na buhay ang perlas ng silanganan!

"ikaw hinawaan mo talaga kami ng kalandian at kalibugan! Myghad my inosent mind!" sabi ko kay milan habang umiiling.

"pero kung ako din naman sis gusto ko nalang din sa kinatatayuan ni laura, isipin mo may sex life ka na tapos napaka yaman pa ni Massimo grabe sana all laura sana all!!" natawa nalang kami ni milan sa reaksyon ni carm HAHAHA!

After that we decided to sleep na para makapagpahinga na, pinipilit kong matulog pero binabagabag parin ako ng isip ko. I'm still thinking of his where abouts and if he's ok. We didn't communicate each other for almost a month that's why I don't know anything about him.

"hey sol wait for me! don't run so fast!" the 7 years old dom run and run until he reach me.

"your so bagal naman kasi eh can't you run fast like me?!"

"eh your legs kaya is so long than mine kaya I can't run like you"

"don't tell me your gay dom? I'll punch you talaga!"

"hey! Who said that I'm gay? I'm not kaya!"

"just be sure that you're not I'll make sumbong to tita des and to mommy talaga!"

"I'm sure talaga no! I'll marry you nga when we're adults na eh! Don't like someone else ha?!"

"how can I marry you eh you're so liit naman than me? I want a tall husband no!"

"edi I'll take many vitamins to become tall so you can marry me na!"

"pinky swear?"

"pinky swear!"

I'm just reminiscing of how cute we are when we're young, how I wish that we're still like that now. Even the promises we made was already forgotten, even our friendship will be forgotten anytime soon. Maybe I need to reset my life without him? But how?. Should I date someone to help myself to forget him? Is it not bad to use another person to forget someone? Is it valid to love another person even I'm not yet done loving someone? I don't know anymore but one thing is for sure, I need to get rid of these feelings and from now on I will love myself first before anything.

I'm on my way now to the office of my mother because she wants to see me, may sasabihin daw sya na importante sakin. Pumasok ako sa opisina ni mommy at naabutan ko doon ang dalawang lalaki isang matanda at isang parang ka edad ko lamang.

"Oh there she is, sol I want you to meet Mr. Jimenez and his Son" bungad ni mommy sakin

"Hi I'm Kio Jimenez it's nice to finally meet you, I heard a lot about you."

FINALLY MEET ME? bakit finally? HEARD A LOT daw?! Itong nanay ko kung kani kanino ata ako chinichika eh!

"Oh really? I guess it's all from my great mother over there, by the way I'am Solis Stella Buenaventura it's nice to meet you, and you too sir." Binati ko naman sila ng maayos no baka sabihin ang ganda ganda ko tapos bastos! HAHAHA!

"Sol from now on you and Kio should hang-out ok? Get to know each other, they are one of our partner in our business so be nice darling ok?".

"Mom how? Sasakay na ako ng barko next month." Hindi naman sa tinatanggihan ko si mommy pero jusmiyo marimar ano to fixed marriage? Diko naman maikakaila na gwapo 'tong si kio pero I'm not yet move on from dom.

"No worries darling, kio took the same course as you at LPU- Cavite so his dad decided to pass his resume too on the cruise where you're going to work, so it means you'll work together."

What the fudge?! Is my mom serious about this? But should I take this opportunity to atleast forget my stupid feelings? Should I take the risk?....