it's always you

Chapter 1

Nandito nanaman ako sa isang sulok at nag-iisip nanaman ng kung ano-ano, it's been almost 6 years since I met him, and until now we're still seeing each other but just like the past, we're just best friends. Tama nga pala yung sinasabi ng iba na kapag may magkaibigan na lalaki at babae hindi mawawala na mayroong mahuhulog na isa. We're always together, and when our other friends are teasing us I'am always the defensive one, and yeah you're right I'm the one who fell in love. Of course, I will deny it duh! And by the way, he has a girlfriend that's why I need to hide these f*cking feelings of mine.

"Soooooolll!!!"

pasigaw na tawag sakin ni Carmela, she's one of my bestfriends, actually we're a group of 3 girls and 4 boys, me, carmela, kalvin and dom has been together since we're high school while milan, ice, and kyle was our new friends here at LPU-B since our first year.

Madali kong inayos ang mga gamit ko dahil nagmamadali na si carm na kumain dahil gutom na daw siya eh parang lagi naman siyang gutom eh, we're on our way to the cafeteria of our school 'cause carm said milan is already there. Hindi kasi kami magkakaklase I'am taking Cruiseline Operation in Culinary Arts with carm, kyle and dom while milan, ice and kalvin was taking Tourism, we met each other because of the PISTAKASAN it's the Sports Fest in our school we've been teammates since first year.

As we entered the cafeteria we saw milan alone,

"Oh! Bakit mag-isa ka lang? nasan ang mga kupal?". Tanong ni carm kay milan, "nagchat kaya sa gc! Gaga magbasa ka kasi!".

Napa-ismid na lang ako sa kanilang dalawa dahil lagi naman silang ganyan nagbabarahan.

"Tara na kanina pa sila naghihintay sa kubo!". Yaya ko sa kanilang dalawa dahil hindi talaga kami kumakain dito sa cafeteria ang mahal kasi eh hindi din naman kami nabubusog agad.

"nakakainis naman ang init naman ng unif natin! Tapos wala pa kayong mga payong mga gaga kayo tingnan nyo yung lalakaran natin ang init!" rant ni milan habang naglalakad kami.

"Putcha! Ang tagal nyo talagang tatlo lagi! gutom na gutom na kami no!" reklamo ng abnormal na si dom, tiningnan ko na lamang sila ng walang pake look ko at nag-order na kami kay nanay, naghihintayan kami lagi sa lunch dahil nakasanayan na din namin. Ganyan lang lagi ang araw namin sa school dahil graduating na din kami ay sobrang busy na din namin.

Weeks passed......

I'm here now in the library to sleep, yes to get some sleep 'cause I badly need it. Ilang araw din akong puyat dahil sa research namin and now it's done same as the defense I can now take a rest.

"HOY! Sino may sabi sayong matulog ka dito sa lib?!"

napapitlag ako sa gulat dahil sa bwiset na si dom, hindi ko talaga alam kung bakit ko 'to nagustuhan eh kinginang abnormal to! But I suddenly realize that am I still into him? O baka natatakot lang ako tanggapin na naka move on na ako sa kanya dahil lahat ng plano ko sa buhay ay kasama sya, Natatakot lang ako na tumanggap ulit ng panibagong tao sa buhay ko dahil sobra na yung sakit na natanggap ko ng dahil sa mokong na 'to.

"Hoy! Solis Stella Andrada Buenaventura!". Napabalik na lamang ako sa wisyo dahil sa pagtawag niya sa pangalan ko, alam niya namang ayaw na ayaw kong tinatawag ako sa buo kong pangalan! Napaka hayop nito!.

"Hoy Dom Aevry Cruz Santiago pwede ba umalis ka sa harapan ko at nakakasuka yang pagmumukha mo!" inis kong sabi sa kanya.

"HAHAHA! Napaka pikon mong kupal ka! Ok lang na tawagin mo ako sa buo kong pangalan kasi ang gwapo namang pakinggan eh." Mayabang niyang pang-aasar sakin.

"bakit ka ba kasi nandito? Akala ko ba aalis ka na at pupuntahan mo yung pabebe mong jowa sa UB?!"mataray kong sabi sa kanya.

"Eh may biglaang meeting daw sa org nila eh kaya dito nalang ako, tsk wag ka nga magselos ang panget ng itsura mo lalo! HAHAHA". Pero sa totoo lang wala na akong nararamdamang selos compared to the past years and I think my feelings for him is already fading. Pero talaga ba?

Gagraduate na kami next month and we're so excited, we decided to celebrate before we finally walk on the stage.

"ano? Tricia's tayo!" yaya ni kalvin samin kaming girls ay go lang kahit saan dahil magkakasama naman kami sa apartment well same as the boys magkakasama din sila.

"ayaw ko don ang crowded masyado! Gusto ko tayo tayo lang!" sagot naman ni ice, ayaw niya kasi talaga uminom kapag maraming kasama kasi for sure pag nagpunta kami don ay di mawawala ang pakikipaghalubilo sa iba he's not the bar type anyway.

"sa bagay it's our achievement as a squad so we'll celebrate it just us." Kyle said.

"so ano? Kaninong apartment?." Tanong ni milan "syempre apartment niyo girls ng maranasan naman ninyo maglinis no lagi nalang apartment namin yung kinakalatan nyo." Maarteng sabi ni dom.

We buy some snacks at the sm supermarket, the boys is not with us 'cause their task is to buy drinks though we can go to them naman after this nasa beverages area lang naman sila.

"can we add more lollipops please?" carmela said with her pa cute strategy. She's into lollipop talaga when we're drinking kaya nahawa na din kami eh. We paid the snacks and we saw the boys was already waiting for us outside the supermarket.

"bakit ang tagal nanaman ninyo ano ba pinagbibibili ninyo?" bungad samin ni kalvin "malamang pulutan shunga lang?" banat naman sa kanya ni milan. I thought we already hit that maturity point but as what I've witnessing right now? I guess not yet.

"tara na alak na alak na ako dami pa ninyong sat sat eh!" yaya ko sa kanila.

Sumakay na kami sa sasakyan ni kyle dahil siya lang naman ang may sasakyan samin oh diba yaman ng tropa namin naka SUV Kia Telluride si gago advance grad gift ng parents niya edi sana all!!

Nakarating na kami sa apartment namin dito lang sa may baba ng lpu ganon lang kalapit sa school pero lagi padin late. Ang boys naman ay sa may bayan pa kasi wala nang available dito malapit sa amin. We set up the table in our rooftop medyo sosyal ang aming apartment dahil parents namin ang nagdecide nito, my father is a captain on a cruise and my mother is managing our company in manila while the parents of milan and carm is both under on the business industry. Hindi kami taga batangas lahat but we have relatives here, our course is just here that's why we're here.

Medyo lumalalim na ang gabi at napansin kong ilan sa amin ay tinatamaan na, milan is already drunk but somehow she can still control herself from doing things that she know she'll regret tomorrow. While my bitch bff is already puking and can't control herself from throwing her shit! "goddamn carm! What's that shit? Why did you get even drunk yourself?" sermon ni dom sa kanya, ganyan lagi yan samin ako lang talaga ang naglalagay ng malisya dati HAHAHA! Pinatulog na namin si carm 'cause she's f*cking wasted already she's even shouting in the middle of the night god that bitch I'm gonna kill her when she woke up.

Milan is still drinking here with us she sober up herself while carm is making a scene a while ago, I have a high tolerance when it comes to alcohol but not all the time I can manage it. Tahimik kaming nakahiga na ngayon dito sa rooftop habang pinagmamasdan ang mga talang nagtitingkaran sa kalangitan.

"luna is really lovely, but I want her to become solis either." Napalingon ako sa sinabing iyon ni dom,

" you mean dom?" sagot ko sa kanya at sabay naman kaming napatawa ng bahagya, My name Solis and his name Dom means the Sun, this is one of the many reasons why we're best friends our mothers are also best friends they planned that their first child will be named as the sun that's why we're here using that name.

I really like the sun set in the beach but I'm also fond of staring the sky at night with the moons and the stars.

"what are you thinking?" tanong ni dom sakin,

"naisip ko lang after we graduate, can we still be like this? I mean us? Magkakaroon parin kaya tayo ng time para sa isa't isa?"

"I can always make time for you." When he said that I already close my eyes.