Beyond

Day 4: May 11, 2020

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May 11, 2020 

My head spun like a hurricane as I woke up gasping with the sensation of having a nightmare. Why do these things happen? But I cannot recall what it was. However, I can tell you this, it was ghastly and horrifying like a horror movie replayed over and over again.

I dislike horror movies, but that's probably not surprising. I guess you could say that I get scared easily. If someone comes behind me and yells god know what, I will jump, sarcastically saying, 20 feet.

It was 6:30 in the morning when I woke up panting with rising fear. My heart felt like it skipped many beats; it was an awful feeling to have, especially on a Monday morning. But what could I do about it? Nothing. I have no control over it.

I quickly fell back to a deep sleep until around 7:50 while turning off my constant alarms that vibrated through my phone, without even waking up. I feel like everyone has this special ability. It just comes naturally when you really want to sleep.

But as a little change for the day, I called him instead of him calling me to wake up. However, later I found out that sadly he was already up and just was going to call me later to let me get more sleep, which I find very kind and extremely generous. Since sleep and I are basically best friends.

I had multiple classes today and less free time with added homework, but I learned even more effective ways of time management. I believe that these things happen to make us stronger for the college load of work.

During my free time, I started knitting my second blanket for MSAG, which I mentioned previously. It was very fun because I also watched the movie After while doing so.

I also read the book: After. Both the movie and book taught me that whatever you hear and see is not always entirely true. Things can get ugly sometimes, but it can always be turned around into what you truly desire.

This is one of the most inspiring novels and movies I have ever watched. It shows how expectations are not always reality in a contrasted way. It explains the simple but complex dichotomy: seeing vs believing.

It inspires people to see that anything could happen, love, perhaps with someone you never thought of. I, 100%, recommend this movie to everyone because it will make you think, changing your mind set positively.

Also, during my classes, I realized how much teachers are working to make sure we are still learning even during these hard times, and I do not know how much I can stress this but thank you with all our hearts for your hard work and determination!

Thank you for always supporting us and making us believe in ourselves when sometimes we just don't. Thank you for always seeing us as our true self and letting us realize that dreams can happen.

To all the Tower Hill teachers that continuously change our lives. Once again, thank you and we wish all of you to stay safe!

I was washing the dishes to help my family as I thought of how much everyone is going through during these hard times. So here's my advice if you ever feel lost or sad even.

Don't be hard on yourself. Everyone is unique in their own special way. Believe in the best while seeing the worst. Because you are awesome. Because you are yourself.

My heart goes out to all of you, and I want to spread as much positivity as possible everyday, so please PM me if you want to talk or become friends. I will always be there for you guys!

I had a juicy, one of a kind cheeseburger, and to be truthful, I think I really liked it because I was watching Star Wars while eating and making it. I am by far the biggest Star Wars fan ever, so if you ever want to talk about Star Wars, PM me! I will be so happy to talk with you!

Afterwards, I had a couple classes that I really love before school was over. I got used to Zoom fairly quickly because what choice did he have under these circumstances? But I like it, it's kind of like facetime.

As school ended, I began to write on my computer sitting on my super comfy bed, which is memory foam by the way. I know, kind of fancy... (not really lol).

Everything is going well! Friends, academics, hobbies, and etc. are progressing into something delightful.

Because even though this virus changed our lives forever, I know that we will get through this together, and it will make us stronger as a society of humanity. I believe this fully.

COV-19 taught me hope. Why, you might ask. Well, because even though hope could be a dangerous thing like they say in movies and books sometimes, it motivates us with the belief of success and perseverance.

Time is a virtue. Yes, it will unfortunately take time until this is all over. But learning the ability to stay even more safe with happy birthday twice while washing hands might be beneficial in the future. You never know! :)

I then facetimed him again like I usually do. We talked about the normal things in life like we always do and laughed about silly things tenagers find funny.

Today, I wanted to thank him for always being there for me and making me laugh when I really needed it. I also wanted to thank him for always supporting me with everything I do just like how I support him. So, thank you!

~Good things will happen in a blink of time. You just have to believe and keep smiling.~

- A Theme of Positively to All 

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Stay Safe and keep smiling :) - Hannah

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