Just roommates (Naofumi X Motoyasu)

Chapter 13- confession

"Let him stay a bit longer," Motoyasu sighed grabbing my hand. A small blush came to my face. It was a chance that he did care for me. "Thanks!" I smiled facing Motoyasu. "Whatever," He sighed rolling his eyes. "Text me when you want him gone," the stranger shrugged before walking off. "Anything else?" He asked staring at me. "O-one more thing.." I sighed. "Okay, what is it?" He asked calmed down a bit. I sat back down where I was before. I gulped, would he hate me even more?

"Well... I.." I started. Was this going to sound dumb? "Well you what?" Kitamura sighed getting inpatient. "I am refusing that I like guys. I swore to myself that I only liked girls. I-I thought everyone would Judgle me If I was dating a male." I mumbled tears beginning to form in my eyes.  Motoyasu sighed and sat up. "It is the most obvious thing that you like guys," He chuckled placing a hand on my head. I stayed silent. I had nothing to say. All I felt was shame and embarrassment. I felt two arms wrap around my waist and a head against my back.

"So, do you want to be my boyfriend?" He snickered from behind. What if he abused me? What if he was faking this? "I-I..." I stamered how did I want to react to this. "I uh.." I stammered again. Tears fell down my cheeks. "C-can we just stay friends for now? I'll tell you when I'm ready. J-just give me time." I mumbled standing up. I turned around and looked at him, holding my arm. I knew this was better for both of us. "W-why? I thought you..?" He started tears once again forming in his eyes. "I'm sorry! B-but.. It's better for us." I sighed looking away. "W-what?! No it isn't!" He yelled sitting all the way up.

"Please. I'll tell you when I'm ready," I sighed turning around. "W-... Are you leaving?" He asked. "Y-yeah.." I stamered with fear. "W-wait!" Motoyasu yelled. He stood up and ran over to me as I walked to the door. "Why..? Do you love me or no?" Motoyasu asked with a sigh. Tears fell from his face as he grabbed my free hand. The other was placed on the door knob. He pulled back turning me around. "I..." I stammred. I had to lie, He would keep me here if I didn't do this.

"No, I'm sorry. I don't love you that much," I sighed. Just like before at the carnival his grip loosened. Except this time, I didn't pull away. "B-before you said you did!" Kitamura yelled clenching a fist. "I did, But I didn't want you to feel...hurt," I said looking at the crying man. "I'm sorry," I apologized. The room was silent for a moment. We were both crying, why? Why It hurt so bad. Seeing him cry was painful. "You really do just play with people's hearts.." Kitamura whispered just enough so I could hear.

"W-what! No.." I panicked sweat rolling down my face. Tears stormed down my face, making it hard to see. "That's why your EX did what she did!" Motoyasu shouted pushing my hand away. "You're not who I thought you were! Get out!" Motoyasu yelled in anger. I messed it up, I wanted him to understand but obviously that wasn't happening.

"I thought you were going to understand! I.." I yelled before going to a whisper. I couldn't bare it anymore. I hugged him, the urge was too much. His embrace was warm, I broke out into tears.  "I'm sorry!" I cried into his sholder. "W-what.." Motoyasu stammered, surprised. "I-I'm sorry!" I repeated. I just wanted to get along with him. I didn't want to argue anymore. I wanted to be his boyfriend, but I couldn't. "I-I...Uh.." Motoyasu stammered. I felt his arms slowly wrap around me. "I honestly don't get you.." Motoyasu sighed pulling me as close as he could.

"I... I love you," I mumbled as I cried into his sholder. "Eh.." Motoyasu stammered blushing. "Y-you already know my response.." Motoyasu chuckled. "W-why do you not hate me?" I questioned tensing up even more. "Hate you? Why? Sure I was annoyed before but..." Motoyasu started his voice loud and clear. "I would never hate you," He finished his voice quieter. "B-but I lied to you!" I sobbed regreting that choice. I didn't know why love was so difficult. It was almost like a test. "I don't care about that!" Motoyasu huffed.

"You...don't?" I questioned opening my eyes. "No, why would I?" Motoyasu questioned shrugging. "Because..." I started. I didn't want  to sound stupid or some shit. "It doesn't matter." Motoyasu sighed. "Are you sure..?" I asked once again looking blankly at the floor. Was he just faking it? I know what being lied to is like, Its fucking shit! "Yes, It's fine!" motoyasu assured me rubbing circles on my back. "I just Want to know why," He calmly asked. "O-oh.." I mumbled caught off guard.

"Well uh.. I thought that if I told you I didn't love you, I'd be able to leave.." I sighed relaxing myself. "So you wanted to leave?" Motoyasu asked confused. "At the time.." I said a bit embarrassed. "Anyway, are you coming back to the dorms?" I asked him. "If you don't show up tommorrow, you will be replaced by someone else." I gulped hoping he would come back.

"Uh.. Sure!" Motoyasu agreed. "Good, Now how about we start going." I suggested. "In a little bit," Motoyasu smiled. "But first I want to do something!" Motoyasu laughed letting go of  me. "And that is..?" I asked a bit concerned. Motoyasu picked me up bridal style now holding me in his arms. "W-what are you doing?!" I asked surprised. My face lit up in shock. "You'll see!" Motoyasu smiled begining to walk over to the bed.

He gently placed me down on the bed. "Seriously what are you doing?" I asked blushing.  My face was all shades of red, what the fuck was he doing? He sat on top of me making me flustered even more than I was before. He layed on the end of my stomach. He placed a hand on my sholder. What was he even doing? "W-what are you doing?"