underwater
everytime i fall in love
i'm falling into a deeper ocean.
everytime i fall in love
i loose myself
because i'd always choose them
over me.
and it pulls me deeper everytime,
catches my thoughts
at 3 am,
when i can't sleep,
knowing they
also don't,
because another girl
is pressing her lips
against theirs.
and it's catching my love,
when i'm sitting
alone in my room,
listening to their favorite songs,
knowing every word,
and seeing them
slow dancing
in my head,
feeling astrayed.
and my dignity,
because i'd rather starve
than let go,
i'd rather die
than fucking start calling
my body a home
that i have to take care of
and stop loving people
that aren't for me.
everytime i fall in love
i'm falling into a deeper ocean.
but i still haven't learned
to breathe underwater.
and i won't ever.
because that is not
how living works.
i should just start to fucking
love myself
more than
anyone else.
and let them go.
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