*TRIGGER WARNING*
see description for details
in this chapter there is also some mention of suicidal thoughts but it's pretty brief- I'll mark it with some stars (**) so that you know where it is.
Okay, so I'm not sure if you know how English school systems work so I'll just explain it quickly:
age 4-11 you go to primary school in reception class until year 6.
age 11-16 you go to secondary school in year 7 until year 11 (when you do GCSEs)
age 16-18 you go to sixth form/college or you can go and get an apprenticeship or something (you must be in education). This is year 12 to year 13.
After 18 you don't have to be in education but lots of people choose to go to university etc.
Anyway.
When I started secondary school, I kind of forgot about the whole body problem.
I was so busy trying to fit in and make new friends that it wasn't an issue really.
Then in year 8, I was distracted by a load of bullying about my personality, looks and height. This is kind of when the anxiety and panic attacks started.
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In year 9, I was pretty preoccupied with the anxiety and suicidal thoughts. I had a friend who was absolutely amazing even on this one night that I was sat alone contemplating what to do. His message basically saved my life. But and the end of year 9, it kind of all came flooding back.
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I remembered why I didn't wear bikinis or crop tops.
I remembered why I quit ballet and eventually jazz too.
It was really scary.
And I didn't know what to do about it.
I didn't tell anyone what I was feeling.
I didn't even mention it to my friend.
I kind of regret that now.
Maybe it would've helped something.
Maybe it wouldn't.
I think it's too late now.
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Skinny Girl
Різне*TRIGGER WARNING* Please don't read this if you have suffered (or are suffering) with an eating disorder. It's not good for you, and I don't want to hurt you. I do NOT encourage any of this behaviour. I know how awful it is, but sometimes you just...
