*TRIGGER WARNING*
I wake up at 6:30 every morning for school. The second I get out from under my duvet, I am hit by cold air and I start to shiver. Is the radiator even on? Apparently it is.
I stand on the scales. Is my weight less than yesterday?
Now it's time to get dressed.
I go downstairs to have breakfast. My mum isn't there yet so I put an empty lunchbox into my bag and make some tea to take to school.
When my mum comes downstairs I eat some breakfast just to prove that I have eaten it.
1 weetabix. Mum thinks I have two, but it doesn't matter. That's 62 calories.
About 100ml of oat milk. 43 calories.
Then a cup of a vitamin drink. 5 calories.
My breakfast is usually 110 calories.
I then head to school at 7:15.
The 20 minute walk burns 66 calories.
I like to try and walk around at the bus stop whilst I wait. This usually burns about 9 calories.
Sit on the bus for 40 minutes. I can't really do any exercise here, so I try to warm myself up with my hand warmers and tea.
When I get to school, I like to walk around the science block a couple of times to chat with my friend. Burns 10 calories.
Then I have to sit through lessons. All I can think of is how to avoid eating a snack or lunch.
Break time. I walk around a bit and pretend to be looking for someone.
It's a lie but it burns about 37 calories.
More classes. More planning.
At lunch I eat a kiwi fruit. 35 calories. I also drink my tea, which is 0 calories because it's basically just water with leaves in it. I did check though. My friends try to make me eat more, but I won't.
2 more lessons. By now I usually feel quite sick and dizzy. Probably because I ate too much.
Gym session. 370 calories burned.
At the end of the day, I walk to the bus station which is a 15 minute walk. Burns 49 calories.
Bus for 45 minutes.
Walk to my house from the bus stop. Another 66 calories burned.
Home workout which usually burns about 200 calories.
Dinner. I have no choice but to eat it all which is usually about 350 calories. I hate doing it, but I have to make my parents think I eat.
After dinner I like to do another short workout which usually burns about 100 calories.
By the end of the day, my net calorie intake (excluding BMR) is usually -542 calories.
If I slip up and binge, sometimes I have a net calorie intake of 1000 calories, which makes me feel disgusting.
Please don't ask me why I do it.
I really have no idea.
But please, if you can stop this from happening to you, please please PLEASE stop it.
Food starts to take over your life.
And it's like a living hell.
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Skinny Girl
Random*TRIGGER WARNING* Please don't read this if you have suffered (or are suffering) with an eating disorder. It's not good for you, and I don't want to hurt you. I do NOT encourage any of this behaviour. I know how awful it is, but sometimes you just...
