She Who Doesn't Cry

Chapter 3 - Misunderstood

Elliana's POV

"Let's both stay here"

Nakakahiya man pero ito lang naisip kong paraan..

"W-what?" Di makapaniwalang tanong niya.

"I said let's both stay here... you don't want me to go and I also dont want you to go. We have our reasons" Nakayuko kong sabi.

It's my first time to be in an awkward situation so i tried to reason out.

As far as I know, Drake is safe to be with, so I think it's okay to stay here with him.

"You sure? I mean.. it's not a problem with me coz this suite is really big for just a single person, but are you sure you can stay here with me?"

"Yes"

"But I sometimes have visitor. Well, kase..." Pinutol ko na ang sasabihin niya

"Kung may bisita ka at nandito ako then sa kwarto lang ako, at kung nasa labas naman ako at magka bisita ka then I'll stay outside"

"Okay, I'm just worried you'll get uncomfortable...
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Yung kwarto mo nga pala is next to mine"

Tinuro nya na yung kwarto ko kaya pinasok ko ang mga gamit ko.

Inayos ko na ang gamit ko at saka lumabas uli ng kwarto after 30 minutes, napansin kong wala na si Drake...

Dumiretso ako sa balcony to get a better view of the resort.

Then my phone rang.

Miguel is calling.....

[Hi, so where are you? Anong ginagawa mo?]

"House, doing nothing"
I always answered as cold as I can.

[Okay, dapat talaga isinama kita dito para hindi ka nabo-bored. And I also freaking miss you]

"No, I'm fine here. Let's talk later, my head hurts"

[Once matapos ang sessions ko I'll book my flight back there as soon as possible, I love you]

"Okay"

[I just said I love you ...]

Then I ended the call..

Miguel and I were always like that,

So close yet so far..

I always distant myself to him, because he might get the wrong idea again..

Yes.... Again.

It all starts with that, when he gets the wrong idea until he became overly possessive on me.

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Miguel was once a good friend of mine nung college days namin nang magtapat siya saakin ng nararamdaman niya.

Alam naman niya na lahat ng mga nagtatangka na pumorma sakin ay hindi ko ine-entertain.

Kaya nagulat ako ng sabihin niyang gusto niya ako, he is my friend but I need to turn him down.

Iniwasan niya ako at umabot yun ng isang taon. 1st semester in our 4th year in college when he approached me again.

I thought being extra kind to him will make us friends again, but it turns out na he misunderstood it.

"I didn't come back to be your friend, I never talked to you for a year so you could see me as a man and not as your friend.. I thought iiwasan mo din ako knowing my feelings, but finally you gave me a chance that I will keep forever." I clearly remember his words thru our phone call.

He was so happy that time, na hirap akong putulin yun at sabihing mali siya ng iniisip.

Napag-desisyunan kong sa personal ko nalang sabihin para ipaintindi sa kaniya ang sitwasyon..

Kinabukasan.. Nawala yung lakas ng loob ko na sabihin sa kaniya ng personal na mali siya ng inaakala sa aming dalawa.

So I texted him...

"Miguel, I think you got the wrong idea of me being kind and sweet to you.. I'm just really happy nang pansinin mo ulit ako so I wanted to treat you better because you are my friend."

2 days have passed pero walang Miguel na nagpapakitang muli sa akin..

Nang makarating ako ng University, ay naipatawag kaagad ako ng Room advisor namin sa kaniyang office.

"Mam, ipinatawag nyo po ako?" Bungad ko.

"Ms. Santos please take a seat.. This is Mrs. Lopez, Miguel's mom"

"Nice to meet you po mam, I am Miguel's friend"

"Friend?! Pagkatapos mo siyang paasahin ay tatawagin mo siyang friend? How could you!!??!?" Mataray na sagot nito sakin.

To make it short, nagpunta ang mama niya sa school para iinform na na-hospital si Miguel for committing suicide.

And that is all because of me..

His mom explained to me that Miguel has psychological disorder, and unable to control his anger and frustration so he hurts himself..

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I hug myself as the cold wind blews..

I look up in the sky,,

Don't let him fly back here too soon.

I've got only 3 days here, let me do things I'm not able to do for 3 years.

Please...