Sammy's Little Sister

Chapter 19

A/N guys omg i think i actually passed... The class I lost all my stuff for my teacher told me just wing it after i explained what happened and I think i passed 😭🙌"
~October 3rd~
"Shawn, Shawn wake up" I said shaking him awake
"Huh, why ? What day is it ?" He mumbled
"Its October 3rd" I said and he groaned
"C'mon baby you have to get to the airport before you miss your flight" I said trying not to show that I didn't want him to go.
"5 more minutes" he said facing me
"No, now" i said crossing my arms, which didn't work
He pulled me down to where i was laying next to him and his arms around me.
"Just 5 more minutes" he whispered into my ear.
I wiggled to get out of his arms but he only tightened his grip.
"No. stop" he said
I sighed and turned to face him and played with his hair, as he did mine.
"I'm gonna miss this" he whispered
"What" i asked
"This, laying here with you, holding you in my arms, talking to you, seeing your beautiful face, hearing your voice, everything." he said as he laid his forehead on mine.
"I'm going to miss you too Shawn. So fucking much" i admitted and he kissed my forehead. After a few seconds he slowly got out of bed and I did the same.
*at the airport*
I didn't bother putting make up on because whats the point ? If I did it would just smear anyways because i'm going to start crying.
Shawn and I were just sitting at his gate waiting for his flight to be called. Our hands were intertwined and my head on his shoulder and his head on top on my head.
"Flight 1426 to Seattle Washington" the lady over the speaker announced.
"I don't want to leave you" he said as we both stood up and he pulled me into a tight hug
"I know. But you have to. This kind of offer doesn't happen everyday. Go" i told him. He hugged me even tighter and kissed me.
"I love you Isabell Cayla Wilkinson" he said.
I bit the inside on my lip to hold back tears.
"I love you to Shawn Peter Raul Mendes" and with that he kissed my nose and walked onto his plane looking back before he went all the way in. He looked at me right when a few tears fell. He stopped and looked worried.
"Go" i mouthed to him as i wiped them away
He closed his eyes and took a deep breath before turning back around and going onto the plane.
I quickly walked out of the airport not wanting anymore tears to fall.
I got into my car and was about to start it when i received a text.
Guitar Boy💕❤️
Saying goodbye to you was the hardest thing i've ever had to do in my life. Im sitting here on an airplane crying wondering why i was so stupid to leave you.
And there goes the waterfalls.
My vision because blurry from all the tears but i managed to type a message.
To Guitar Boy 💕❤️
No. Don't you dare say goodbye. Goodbye means leaving, and leaving means forgetting. Think of it as a see ya later. You got on that plane to live your dreams. Shawn Mendes don't you dare say you were stupid for leaving me because you havent. You may not physically be with me but you will always be in my heart, and my mind. I will go to every concert i can and you will be fine. I will be fine. You will be living your dream. Im so proud of you and how far you've gotten. I will always be your number one fan and your biggest supporter i can promise you that. I can also promise you that it'll hurt missing you but it wont hurt as much knowing you are living your dream and living it happily.
I tossed my phone in the passengers seat and wiped my face. I started my car and drove back home as the occasional tear fell.
I got home walked into his room, threw myself on his bed and laid under the covers. It smelt like him and made me feel happy.
I opened snapchat took a picture of myself in his bed with the caption "Dunno what ta do without cha💔" and added it to my story.
I fell asleep thinking about Shawn, and how he will be surrounded by millions of beautiful girls while I'm here, being a coach potato & lookin like a fat potato.